Aaaand here we go again...

[pandoras_chaos]

I need a beta!

Angsty angst with a LOT of explicit content; written post-HLV with a lot of crazy anger involved. I've got a half scene left to write, and then I want it up as fast as possible-- I've seriously been hemming and hawing over this one for two bloody months. My usual beta is busy at the moment, and I don't want to ask my other norm

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[pandoras_chaos]

I'll probably end up doing exactly that. I'm pretty good at picking apart my own writing to the point where it's at least presentable. It's more the fact that I've been working on this one for ages, mainly because I've been slowly working through my own feelings regarding HLV. I honestly have over 10K worth of scenes and dialogue that I've written into this thing and then cut to the scrap pile because I suddenly changed direction/wasn't feeling it. John is my go-to guy when it comes to feelings and interpretations in this show (if you couldn't tell...) but his actions and reactions in S3 were SO off the mark in places that I am finding it really really difficult to write in his voice.

Oddly enough, I don't feel the same way with Sherlock lately, which is totally surprising, but not unexpected after the series we were given.

UGH. I'm just kind of over it now. I've been staring at it for so long that I'm wanting it done so I can go back to my porn in peace. This scene that I'm trying to write right now is the hardest thing ever, which is why I inadvertently put it as the last connecting piece. These boys usually write themselves, so the fact that this one is being so obnoxiously difficult makes me think I probably need someone to go over it first and tell me if anything is completely off. It's hard to write in character when you're not entirely certain of the characters anymore, y'know?