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Lucy's relationship with Ringo is a love-hate relationship. Lucy feels like she is drowning in him when she is around him. The intellectual way he speaks, the way she fits into his arms, but the thing she loved most had gone missing. The way he made her feel special, loved, and intelligent. They have become so real and regular around each other now that they forget to be sensitive and complimentive. In fact, it seems their romantics have been thrown out the window entirely. He used to make her feel smart and intellectually superior, not to him but to the masses in society.
Lucy's drowning in his realistic, but pessimistic, viewpoints. She's drowning feel powerless, lonely, and cold. The problem is that Lucy is not a woman who knows how to fall in love without losing herself. She has attempted to do so many times and, although this time around she maintained her identiy, she cannot help drowning in her overflowing emotions. It makes Lucy yearn to suppress her emotions and run away from the cause, but at the same time she is hoping instead of drowning the cause would help her. He has failed, though.
There is only one thing left to be done. Lucy must abandon all the hope and faith that has taken form within her over the past six months. Lucy must run from Ringo.
The outcome is interesting, because one would assume it would have been John to break Lucy's heart this time around. But it seems to be Ringo that will drive her into isolation and make her hate dating once again.
She's sitting in her room listening to Laura Nyro, wishing things actually would get easier, but the anger and hurt tore over her chest. She couldn't help picturing herself lying passed out in a bath tub with blood oozing out her wrists. She couldn't help remember all the horrible men she had met in her life. Getting her drunk and stoned and forcing his hands under his skirt. Leading her on leash behind him then cheating on her with her friend. Causing her to feel guilty for being afraid to go the next step sexually to the point where she felt forced to go further.
Suddenly it dawned on her that she had never had a good relationship in her life. All the guys she had ever been with seemed to just be using her for something. Lucy did not want anything to do with another man again at that point in her life. She was sure that by next year she would be able to move on but she was more sure that she would just get her heart broken again. Their was a pattern of negative associations which Ringo promised to derail by creating positive associations. But just like all the other men in her life, he was not worthy of either her trust or her love, let alone her virginity.
'Perhaps I should just remain a virgin for the rest of my days,' she pondered craving an easier way to live life. Thriving on the emotional work out she wished for someone that would just love her back so much that he would not leave. 'A man like that does not exist. They will all always leave.'
Lucy's drowning in his realistic, but pessimistic, viewpoints. She's drowning feel powerless, lonely, and cold. The problem is that Lucy is not a woman who knows how to fall in love without losing herself. She has attempted to do so many times and, although this time around she maintained her identiy, she cannot help drowning in her overflowing emotions. It makes Lucy yearn to suppress her emotions and run away from the cause, but at the same time she is hoping instead of drowning the cause would help her. He has failed, though.
There is only one thing left to be done. Lucy must abandon all the hope and faith that has taken form within her over the past six months. Lucy must run from Ringo.
The outcome is interesting, because one would assume it would have been John to break Lucy's heart this time around. But it seems to be Ringo that will drive her into isolation and make her hate dating once again.
She's sitting in her room listening to Laura Nyro, wishing things actually would get easier, but the anger and hurt tore over her chest. She couldn't help picturing herself lying passed out in a bath tub with blood oozing out her wrists. She couldn't help remember all the horrible men she had met in her life. Getting her drunk and stoned and forcing his hands under his skirt. Leading her on leash behind him then cheating on her with her friend. Causing her to feel guilty for being afraid to go the next step sexually to the point where she felt forced to go further.
Suddenly it dawned on her that she had never had a good relationship in her life. All the guys she had ever been with seemed to just be using her for something. Lucy did not want anything to do with another man again at that point in her life. She was sure that by next year she would be able to move on but she was more sure that she would just get her heart broken again. Their was a pattern of negative associations which Ringo promised to derail by creating positive associations. But just like all the other men in her life, he was not worthy of either her trust or her love, let alone her virginity.
'Perhaps I should just remain a virgin for the rest of my days,' she pondered craving an easier way to live life. Thriving on the emotional work out she wished for someone that would just love her back so much that he would not leave. 'A man like that does not exist. They will all always leave.'