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I'm on my summer holidays! all 3 weeks of them and im already two weeks in. so yey! i went to edinburgh for the festival and then newcastle and now back in dover till sunday. then i go back to horrible horrible horrible horrible frimley with a flat mate that doesnt talk to me and life there is just shit right now.
ive got so much course work to finish when i get abck, hence the reason for going back a week early, however i am working four nights to earn some cash to pay for all the things that i brought whilst being away.
So i am officially starting my final year. this time next year i will just be about to start working, that is of course if i manage to get a job. which at the moment doesnt seem likely, and my confidence in the fact that i will actually be a good staff nurse is at an all time low. i have to write my final year project this year and i have absolutely no idea what it is that im going to do, which is scaring me.
when i go back i have to talk to emma about the whole flat situation as im really not happy there, and i may be living in a loverly place but its not fun and i don't feel like its my flat, it feels like im living in emma place which is not how it should be because im the one paying rent.
and i was really looking forward to coming home this summer and seeing everyone for one last time before they all go back to uni and that doesnt look like its gonna happen cause some people are away etc. so that kinda upset me.
then the guy that i thought was a really nice guy actually turned out to be a wierdo and i keep thinking about tom, which is never good in any situation especially when feeling low. but on the plus side to that have deleted his number and his brothers number and his mum and dads house number.
tomorrow i am going to london with mum and dad to see a Dali thing which i really want to see,
i really feel like i don't have any friends in frimley anymore, yes i have fay and tilly but they live in guildford and it difficult because i cant just go over there for a cup of tea because its like a 40 minute train journey. and more and more when i come back to dover people are busy with other stuff and then when things do happen im never here and i feel like i really miss out on stuff.
so having a low day today
ive got so much course work to finish when i get abck, hence the reason for going back a week early, however i am working four nights to earn some cash to pay for all the things that i brought whilst being away.
So i am officially starting my final year. this time next year i will just be about to start working, that is of course if i manage to get a job. which at the moment doesnt seem likely, and my confidence in the fact that i will actually be a good staff nurse is at an all time low. i have to write my final year project this year and i have absolutely no idea what it is that im going to do, which is scaring me.
when i go back i have to talk to emma about the whole flat situation as im really not happy there, and i may be living in a loverly place but its not fun and i don't feel like its my flat, it feels like im living in emma place which is not how it should be because im the one paying rent.
and i was really looking forward to coming home this summer and seeing everyone for one last time before they all go back to uni and that doesnt look like its gonna happen cause some people are away etc. so that kinda upset me.
then the guy that i thought was a really nice guy actually turned out to be a wierdo and i keep thinking about tom, which is never good in any situation especially when feeling low. but on the plus side to that have deleted his number and his brothers number and his mum and dads house number.
tomorrow i am going to london with mum and dad to see a Dali thing which i really want to see,
i really feel like i don't have any friends in frimley anymore, yes i have fay and tilly but they live in guildford and it difficult because i cant just go over there for a cup of tea because its like a 40 minute train journey. and more and more when i come back to dover people are busy with other stuff and then when things do happen im never here and i feel like i really miss out on stuff.
so having a low day today