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its new years day, and im slightly hung over. which i think is the best way to be on new year. im all alone in the house and its loverly. ive done nothing all day. last night was wicked, i was soo drunk. then came home and things just went wrong really. told ian that i dnt want to be his girlfriend because im enjoying where i am in my life at the moment. it would probably be different if he was living around Frimley but he's not and it just didnt feel right. i really liked him, but i wasnt going to lead him on in any way as that wouldnt have been fair. so he stayed last night anyway and i woke up this morning feeling really guilty as i knew how much he likes me and wanted me to be his girlfriend. then this morning he left early ish then he txt me saying that he couldnt make tonight, and that it was his own fault for getting his hopes up when he knew he shouldnt. he just needed space today. so now i feel really bad bout it all because i feel like ive lead him on when i wasnt at all but i just feel like that.
also i think that if it was right between us then i wouldnt be thinking like this. it would be like karen and stu are or claire and tom. when they are together u know that they are right together and i dnt feel like that with ian. to be honest, and i hate to say it, but i remember it feelin really right with tom in the beginning and ive not found that with anyone else.
also i think that if it was right between us then i wouldnt be thinking like this. it would be like karen and stu are or claire and tom. when they are together u know that they are right together and i dnt feel like that with ian. to be honest, and i hate to say it, but i remember it feelin really right with tom in the beginning and ive not found that with anyone else.