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i got my drivers license today. only a provisional with the required restrictions and red tape. such a milestone. my sisters screamed.
i signed up to donate my organs if i die. a wonderful thing to do, i'm told. such a small little symbol means life or death to someone rotting away in a hospital. i hate hospitals.
i feel blank. i don't want school to start and yet i do. i want to see my friends and teachers, to argue over issues and to learn interesting things. but i don't want to apply to college, to plan graduation, do my last show. this has been the most fun i have ever had, in drama and at school. yes, i have kicked and screamed and wept along the way, but i've grown. i wouldn't be sitting here typing this, most likely, if everything that has happend didn't happen.
here i am, perched on the brink, the adult world ready to swollow me.
and i am wanting to jump with my stuffed dog in hand.
why start over?
i signed up to donate my organs if i die. a wonderful thing to do, i'm told. such a small little symbol means life or death to someone rotting away in a hospital. i hate hospitals.
i feel blank. i don't want school to start and yet i do. i want to see my friends and teachers, to argue over issues and to learn interesting things. but i don't want to apply to college, to plan graduation, do my last show. this has been the most fun i have ever had, in drama and at school. yes, i have kicked and screamed and wept along the way, but i've grown. i wouldn't be sitting here typing this, most likely, if everything that has happend didn't happen.
here i am, perched on the brink, the adult world ready to swollow me.
and i am wanting to jump with my stuffed dog in hand.
why start over?