2 poems

[pandora_of_pain]

i feel so lost, espicially when the sun shines
that is accentuates how dark...
how dark is my life
I feel so alive, expcially when love gives off
its poison gas, that my heart is dying
that it's free at last
I feel so dead, espcailly at night
that these words are my coffin
my own hand constucting it
I feel so alone, espically when i write
that every sentence is deepening the moat
i feel so lost, espicially when the sun shines
that is accentuates how dark...
how dark is my life

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another day goes by
and nothing seems to change
but my heart strays farther
from what it use to be
sadness creeps constantly
into my longing eyes
as i hope for a miracle
that will never come
it;s been such a long time
since those carefree days
where i was simply a child
as happy as could be
ihad such join in my life
and nothing seemed wrong
but sadly those dyas are long gone
times will never be teh same
for i have changed so much
eerythign si differnet now
and my sadness consumes me