50 weeks of my life...
I haven't updated as much as I would have liked to lately. I feel like the whole last year has been a blur, but I feel like I was meant to be a Mom.
I think I'm finally starting to cope with Logan's birth much better now... I don't cry every day anymore, thats a good thing. Now I usually only cry when I watch A Baby Story, and Logan laughs at me when I do so that usually makes me feel better. I used to cry anytime anything reminded me of his birth or even being pregnant... I had to stop watching Scrubs because it just became too traumatic. I used to just rock him in the chair and cry in the afternoons. I also couldn't bear to be without him. Work was torture, and the thought of leaving him and going out just made me physically ill. OK, so maybe I might have had a touch of PPD, or maybe its just normal when you've been through something like that. Things are much better now though.
Logan is really turning into a little boy now. He's crawling all over the place, and pulling up on everything. We've even had a few steps, not without us pushing him to do so though. He also talks up a storm. He babbles all day long. He also is developing quite a little vocabulary. Uh-oh being the most popular right now. He even throws his toys just so he can say uh-oh. He's going to be a handful.... but in a good way. I love watching him discover things. He's just so much fun now. I really enjoy every moment I get to spend with him. Especially when he comes over, gives me that big toothless smile and says "hi".
I gave up on making my own cloth diapers. The first 2 I made were not so bad, so I thought, "I can do this". So I cut up the fabric to make 6 more, and got to sewing. After 2 more attempts I gave up and ordered some. I ordered the Kushies AIO's. I know they aren't the greatest ones, but I could afford a whole set, as opposed to just a few good ones. If I'm going to cloth diaper, it really has to be all or nothing. I use the G-diapers now with cloth inserts, but only some of the time so it makes it complicated. I think it will be easier using all cloth.
My anxiety has come back a little. Its not bad though. I find myself getting anxious a little bit througout the day, but I'm only getting palpitations every once in a while. I jsut do my best to take a deep cleansing breath and try to relax.
I'm cutting my hair off tonight. I just can't stand it anymore. Its getting thin from nursing and I don't even want to touch it. I hope I like it.
I think I'm finally starting to cope with Logan's birth much better now... I don't cry every day anymore, thats a good thing. Now I usually only cry when I watch A Baby Story, and Logan laughs at me when I do so that usually makes me feel better. I used to cry anytime anything reminded me of his birth or even being pregnant... I had to stop watching Scrubs because it just became too traumatic. I used to just rock him in the chair and cry in the afternoons. I also couldn't bear to be without him. Work was torture, and the thought of leaving him and going out just made me physically ill. OK, so maybe I might have had a touch of PPD, or maybe its just normal when you've been through something like that. Things are much better now though.
Logan is really turning into a little boy now. He's crawling all over the place, and pulling up on everything. We've even had a few steps, not without us pushing him to do so though. He also talks up a storm. He babbles all day long. He also is developing quite a little vocabulary. Uh-oh being the most popular right now. He even throws his toys just so he can say uh-oh. He's going to be a handful.... but in a good way. I love watching him discover things. He's just so much fun now. I really enjoy every moment I get to spend with him. Especially when he comes over, gives me that big toothless smile and says "hi".
I gave up on making my own cloth diapers. The first 2 I made were not so bad, so I thought, "I can do this". So I cut up the fabric to make 6 more, and got to sewing. After 2 more attempts I gave up and ordered some. I ordered the Kushies AIO's. I know they aren't the greatest ones, but I could afford a whole set, as opposed to just a few good ones. If I'm going to cloth diaper, it really has to be all or nothing. I use the G-diapers now with cloth inserts, but only some of the time so it makes it complicated. I think it will be easier using all cloth.
My anxiety has come back a little. Its not bad though. I find myself getting anxious a little bit througout the day, but I'm only getting palpitations every once in a while. I jsut do my best to take a deep cleansing breath and try to relax.
I'm cutting my hair off tonight. I just can't stand it anymore. Its getting thin from nursing and I don't even want to touch it. I hope I like it.