yeah, sure, whatever
why do i rush headlong into things that i know are terrible ideas? why do i keep thinking that this time will be different? i tell myself that it is optimism, that i believe the best about people and give them the benefit of the doubt long after i should know better. but at this point i think it is just stupidity. i mean really, at what point do you trade optimism for reality, and can you do that without losing faith in people? then again, maybe that is where the problem lies, perhaps having faith in other people is stupid in and of itself. they will disappoint you and not just in these big huge ways, but in the small everyday act of living their lives. i know it is unrealistic to have these expectations, but they are there nonetheless.