Nov 04, 2005 23:41
it's been an incredibly long time since ive written in here, so here you all go.
Oblivious
You make me laugh,
You make me smile,
I’m smitten in love
And oblivious all the while
Not realizing love
Can be a tangled web
I overlooked the warnings
And ignored what they said
My heart was shattered
My tears poured down
Everything I wanted and had
Had been drowned
I thought life was worthless
I had no where to turn
I had to get over you
And I had to learn
I learned in love there are many mistakes
Some of which hurt you bad
I prayed in despair for you to come back
But even that made me sad
The next time I saw you
I bared my entire soul
Just so that you’d understand
I’m not exactly whole
I’m living a better life now
It gets better everyday
I’m taking things slow
Just so that you’ll stay
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The Pain of Myself
This pain - it's burning
so deep inside of me
It's wrecking and tearing me apart
My mind has gone missing
It's swollen - with pain and anger
I can't - I'm helpless to do
Anything
I just want myself back
This horrible person I've become
is scaring me
I want to be NORMAL
not the ugly duckling I'm considered
Now
it's the time
to break free of
the chains that hold me
down, chains of pain
and MOVE ON
to a better place
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My Sister
You're my best friend
and you're the only one
the only sister who completes me
and turns sadness into fun
You know how to make me laugh
in sun, snow, or rain
You are always by my side
...even when I am a pain
You know my deep dark secrets
secrets which I can't tell
No one's closer to me than you
You know me way too well
You've always done so much for me
For that, I can't repay
You've always been one step ahead
guiding and showing me the way
You are my very best friend
my wonderful big sister too
You mean more to me than anyone else
I LOVE YOU!
*dedicated to Jennifer Ann Crounse, class of 2004*
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How Long (Inside)
How many times is it going to be
until I can reach your heart
How long will it last
until I can see inside your soul
'cause it's hurting me from the
inside, and I don't know what to do,
where to go, or who I am
but it hurts, so deep inside
Do you know this pain?
The pain that always comes
back to haunt you
How long does it last
What do you do to stop it?
Can you tell me?
Or can't you reach my
heart or see inside my soul
Has it been too long
and too much pain for
you to bear on those strong
shoulders, shoulders of courage?
Do you see a future
for anyone you love?
Me or you or anybody?
How far down that road
do you travel?
How long will it take for
you to see the pain I
have inside dealing
with you?
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My Mind
My head spins
my mind aches a lot
When I see what's going on
my body shakes to knots
I'm so scared, I'm freaking out
I love you way too much
I don't want to lose you
I love your gentle touch
We're breaking apart and that's hard
I seriously don't know what to do
I'm shaking, aching, and falling down
because I CAN'T lose you
I guess you're right
We need our time, to chill and to think
I told you we'd both get sick if we let
this relationship start to sink
You need me as much as I need you
Now can you see why?
I love you to a point of extremity
and that is why I cry
I don't know how to end this poem
but I'll say something like this
My love is complete when I'm with you
for me, there is no last kiss
I cannot go on without you
Our love remains so strong
but as I end my poem here,
for you, this is your song.
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Him
It drives me crazy that I can't hold him
I miss him so much
I miss his warm smiles when he greets me
his contagious laughter when we joke
his constant happiness
the soft hazel eyes that I gazed into
the "barely there" brown hair that I massaged to calm him down
When he used to hold me close when I was cold
the beating of his love-filled heart, calm and quiet
when we watched the stars under a summer sky
the "weekend-worth-waiting-for" hugs and kisses
when I see him and we hold each other
It is no more, so far away, so long ago
It makes me cry to think he's gone
If only he could hear my pleas
to have him back in my heart and soul
he is all that I could have asked for
my angel, my everything
my emotions have been shattered like glass
I can't seem to breathe when I'm not with him
he made me "float" above the clouds
Like a bird on wings of complete freedom
I know of no other way
I think about it all the time
the two of us, back together again
Someday
I will realize my mistakes
understanding the wrong...
...from the right
I will travel down a road of bravery
and courage
step over obstacles in my way
and move on
he will always be in my heart.
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© Sheila Coughlin