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been out with friends,
was a good night - i see alot of them now.
though i still have this wash of worry and fear that comes over me every so often.
and just now its making me feel sick, my stomach is churning.
i miss tom - theres no doubt about it.
but not in the way i thought i would. i miss the closeness we had and the fun.
and most of all i miss being able to talk to him openly about anything and everything.
even the cuddles. he was my best buddie.
feeling slightly down towards him atm, his actions are pretty shitty but i guess he just wants to forget me... i wish he would speak to me as if i were a person; with hopes, dreams, worries and fears.
i dont know how i feel other than i still care for him, and i know i dont love him. well im not in love with him.
i really want a cuddle and for him to tell me everythings going to work out ok. i still believe in him
i guess im not just capable of disgarding someone i spent the majority of my recent life with.
my heart aches sometimes when i think about him; more so that i think hes already found someone else alongside the fact that he has been very nasty to me with some of his words in the past.
i dont mean to be a nasty person, and i didnt mean to hurt anyone that i held close.
anyways;
i need a friend just now.
was a good night - i see alot of them now.
though i still have this wash of worry and fear that comes over me every so often.
and just now its making me feel sick, my stomach is churning.
i miss tom - theres no doubt about it.
but not in the way i thought i would. i miss the closeness we had and the fun.
and most of all i miss being able to talk to him openly about anything and everything.
even the cuddles. he was my best buddie.
feeling slightly down towards him atm, his actions are pretty shitty but i guess he just wants to forget me... i wish he would speak to me as if i were a person; with hopes, dreams, worries and fears.
i dont know how i feel other than i still care for him, and i know i dont love him. well im not in love with him.
i really want a cuddle and for him to tell me everythings going to work out ok. i still believe in him
i guess im not just capable of disgarding someone i spent the majority of my recent life with.
my heart aches sometimes when i think about him; more so that i think hes already found someone else alongside the fact that he has been very nasty to me with some of his words in the past.
i dont mean to be a nasty person, and i didnt mean to hurt anyone that i held close.
anyways;
i need a friend just now.