These eyes are blind- This is a pure thing
They said that things do change when you get married, and they were right. It's even more wonderful than before. I'm glad we didn't elope, despite the panic and mixups and the craziness. This whole process gave me an invaluable chance to reflect on myself and on the direction I wished my life to move in. I cling to my pain, which is a habit and bad one. I hold it inside of my like an oyster, coating it with bits of myself so it won't aggravate me, but resulting in these bits being curled inward tight and painful, pulling me out of balance.
It's not about closure, or forgiveness, or even moving on, really. It's about letting go. I've kept this pain because I thought I had to, because I didn't know how to let it go. But it's not about "how" to let it go after all. There's no trick to it. You just do. It's only opening up yourself and letting go of that which there's no reason to hang on to. I feel so much better now, and I take breaths that reach all the way into my soul. It clears away the detritus and the rubble that's collected there, and I feel lighter than I have in years.
I've given thought also to my physical pain, and how I relate to it, but I suppose it's easier for me to find balance when an issue doesn't continue to grind. Still, though, I'll take my epiphanies as they come, and have faith in myself that I'll continue moving towards the balance that I seek. My life continues to come into alignment, and my joining with my soulmate is the single most renewing event I have known. When we made love for the first time, as husband and wife, something tight released inside of me, the reverberations of which still soothe my soul. Only when that which you think and that which you feel clears like fog can you understand that which you have always known. I am imperfect, but I continue to move into alignment, for I move in tandem.
It's not about closure, or forgiveness, or even moving on, really. It's about letting go. I've kept this pain because I thought I had to, because I didn't know how to let it go. But it's not about "how" to let it go after all. There's no trick to it. You just do. It's only opening up yourself and letting go of that which there's no reason to hang on to. I feel so much better now, and I take breaths that reach all the way into my soul. It clears away the detritus and the rubble that's collected there, and I feel lighter than I have in years.
I've given thought also to my physical pain, and how I relate to it, but I suppose it's easier for me to find balance when an issue doesn't continue to grind. Still, though, I'll take my epiphanies as they come, and have faith in myself that I'll continue moving towards the balance that I seek. My life continues to come into alignment, and my joining with my soulmate is the single most renewing event I have known. When we made love for the first time, as husband and wife, something tight released inside of me, the reverberations of which still soothe my soul. Only when that which you think and that which you feel clears like fog can you understand that which you have always known. I am imperfect, but I continue to move into alignment, for I move in tandem.