Chemistry
I might surprise a few people here, myself included, but I actually LIKE Chemistry! Weird huh? Well, that point aside, I might drop it. ugh
I hate money. I think that this country is great in that you can build from the ground up and self-made millionaires are more common here than in many many places, but I just can't seem to get a break!!! So today the admissions office informs me that I didn't get in-state tuition. Maybe not such a big deal to some people but to me it's the difference between $500 for Chem 150 or $1,900. Are you kidding me??? She said that I got the paperwork in too late and that my file is locked in out-of state...bull shit. So what you are saying is that nobody in the whole fucking place can type in a passcode and change my tuition standing??? NOBODY??? Thanks for nothing ass. I DONT HAVE two grand!!!! Big surprise there! So no, they don't know if they can even get my paperwork processed for THIS summer session...so if I stay in this class there's a chance it could cost ANOTHER $1,900. I'm so pissed right now. I really enjoyed last semester. I was looking forward to this one and if I can't take it, that puts me back a whole semester which means I need to wait a whole year more to apply to naturopath school This fucking sucks! So, of course now I am thinking, maybe my dad was right, maybe I can't afford to do this. But if I can't afford to do this then I'm stuck in dead end jobs for the rest of my life pretty much because I can't do ANYTHING with a freakin psych undergrad degree. I know that looking at it in absolutes is not a good thing to do and I should try to be positive, but I'm trying to further my education so that I can make more money and they just keep taking the money away...how can I pay rent if I have to pay 4 flippin grand for school this summer...and that's not even counting next fall if I even go next fall.
I am just so frustrated. I have all these thoughts going through my head. Alternatives for my life...I considered the peace corps...still considering. Africa for 2 years...paid for? maybe. I have always wanted to open a (more) affordable adoption agency or be a foster mother or work in a foreign adoption agency. But all of those options require a little bit of collateral. Some MONEY!!!!!! You know what? People do it all the time, it just seems like someone is against me. My insurance company just cancelled me because apparently my lisence was cancelled 3 months ago...WHAT!?!?! I have to pay all my medical bills for my kidney almost dying, I'm trying to pay off my existing student loans, and now I have extra debt from school because they don't believe i have been living here for over 3 years.
You know how it just seems like sometimes you can't win? No matter what you do?
I hate money. I think that this country is great in that you can build from the ground up and self-made millionaires are more common here than in many many places, but I just can't seem to get a break!!! So today the admissions office informs me that I didn't get in-state tuition. Maybe not such a big deal to some people but to me it's the difference between $500 for Chem 150 or $1,900. Are you kidding me??? She said that I got the paperwork in too late and that my file is locked in out-of state...bull shit. So what you are saying is that nobody in the whole fucking place can type in a passcode and change my tuition standing??? NOBODY??? Thanks for nothing ass. I DONT HAVE two grand!!!! Big surprise there! So no, they don't know if they can even get my paperwork processed for THIS summer session...so if I stay in this class there's a chance it could cost ANOTHER $1,900. I'm so pissed right now. I really enjoyed last semester. I was looking forward to this one and if I can't take it, that puts me back a whole semester which means I need to wait a whole year more to apply to naturopath school This fucking sucks! So, of course now I am thinking, maybe my dad was right, maybe I can't afford to do this. But if I can't afford to do this then I'm stuck in dead end jobs for the rest of my life pretty much because I can't do ANYTHING with a freakin psych undergrad degree. I know that looking at it in absolutes is not a good thing to do and I should try to be positive, but I'm trying to further my education so that I can make more money and they just keep taking the money away...how can I pay rent if I have to pay 4 flippin grand for school this summer...and that's not even counting next fall if I even go next fall.
I am just so frustrated. I have all these thoughts going through my head. Alternatives for my life...I considered the peace corps...still considering. Africa for 2 years...paid for? maybe. I have always wanted to open a (more) affordable adoption agency or be a foster mother or work in a foreign adoption agency. But all of those options require a little bit of collateral. Some MONEY!!!!!! You know what? People do it all the time, it just seems like someone is against me. My insurance company just cancelled me because apparently my lisence was cancelled 3 months ago...WHAT!?!?! I have to pay all my medical bills for my kidney almost dying, I'm trying to pay off my existing student loans, and now I have extra debt from school because they don't believe i have been living here for over 3 years.
You know how it just seems like sometimes you can't win? No matter what you do?