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i hope no one sees this.
i feel far away. far away from where i was when it all started and far away from where i'll end up. it's this in-between state where i'm so afraid to lose everything that i can't move - i'm just stuck here. is it all going to change? everything i've known about my life... is it somehow different now? it feels strange because change is the only thing that's constant - it's the only thing we can depend on - and yet somehow it seems bigger this time. like it's going to swallow me and i'll lose my footing. and i'll just fall away from everything i care about. i wonder how we're supposed to hold ourselves up when everything around us is changing. how do you make something unknown feel safe?
i feel far away. far away from where i was when it all started and far away from where i'll end up. it's this in-between state where i'm so afraid to lose everything that i can't move - i'm just stuck here. is it all going to change? everything i've known about my life... is it somehow different now? it feels strange because change is the only thing that's constant - it's the only thing we can depend on - and yet somehow it seems bigger this time. like it's going to swallow me and i'll lose my footing. and i'll just fall away from everything i care about. i wonder how we're supposed to hold ourselves up when everything around us is changing. how do you make something unknown feel safe?