hi again.
wow. i haven't done this in forever. i don't even know where to begin... i was reading old posts and the things i wrote are like mind-boggling. things about rudy and noah and kendy and all my camp friends. things about my sister and i not getting along, hating my family. i almost feel like it's pointless to start posting again because no one i know actually reads this stuff anymore... who knows. if you still post or just read, let me know.
the last time i posted was the middle of... junior year. so much has happened since then. i'm a freshman in college now! yeah, i'm almost done with my first semester of school at boston university. to make a long story short: overall, i like it here. i'm having a decent time, too. i'm overworked, tired, and probably gaining weight, but i'm meeting people and learning things and living something i thought i would never get to because it just seemed so far off.
i don't have the time or the patience to write about everything that's happened in almost two years. here's a short version:
noah and i broke up... we didn't even make it through our first summer. i think about it a lot actually, and how in so many ways what he did to me just isn't right and i shouldn't be able to forgive him this easily. but on the other hand, sometimes i'm not sure if we had a real shot. god, it feels like we were so young... how would things be now that we're older and more mature. i mean, we're adults. kendy and i aren't really friends anymore. i'm not even going to start about it but a lot of the time i'm a little sad about the way things turned out bewteen us. my current best friends are melinda, gulus, kyra, samira, richa, jake, SARAH <3, andrew, dan, phil, justin, alyssa, jeremy, and adam. and i'm making new friends all the time, like nicole, who i met here during this outreach program i did in august before classes began. she's awesome, i can tell we're gonna be friends for a long time. my family and i are doing alright. my dad just moved in with his girlfriend, the woman who he had an affair with while he was still married to my mom. i hate talking about it, so i won't, but there it is. looking back, it's weird but i talked SO MUCH about rudy, and now i barely think about him. he's living in hong kong, he has a new girlfriend, and i think he's doing well. i'm okay with not talking though, we're better friends now than i think we ever were as a couple. what else? i don't know, i'm sure i'll think of more things, meaningful things, to say some other time, but until then, i hope this little update was enough for you, if anyone is even reading.
amanda
the last time i posted was the middle of... junior year. so much has happened since then. i'm a freshman in college now! yeah, i'm almost done with my first semester of school at boston university. to make a long story short: overall, i like it here. i'm having a decent time, too. i'm overworked, tired, and probably gaining weight, but i'm meeting people and learning things and living something i thought i would never get to because it just seemed so far off.
i don't have the time or the patience to write about everything that's happened in almost two years. here's a short version:
noah and i broke up... we didn't even make it through our first summer. i think about it a lot actually, and how in so many ways what he did to me just isn't right and i shouldn't be able to forgive him this easily. but on the other hand, sometimes i'm not sure if we had a real shot. god, it feels like we were so young... how would things be now that we're older and more mature. i mean, we're adults. kendy and i aren't really friends anymore. i'm not even going to start about it but a lot of the time i'm a little sad about the way things turned out bewteen us. my current best friends are melinda, gulus, kyra, samira, richa, jake, SARAH <3, andrew, dan, phil, justin, alyssa, jeremy, and adam. and i'm making new friends all the time, like nicole, who i met here during this outreach program i did in august before classes began. she's awesome, i can tell we're gonna be friends for a long time. my family and i are doing alright. my dad just moved in with his girlfriend, the woman who he had an affair with while he was still married to my mom. i hate talking about it, so i won't, but there it is. looking back, it's weird but i talked SO MUCH about rudy, and now i barely think about him. he's living in hong kong, he has a new girlfriend, and i think he's doing well. i'm okay with not talking though, we're better friends now than i think we ever were as a couple. what else? i don't know, i'm sure i'll think of more things, meaningful things, to say some other time, but until then, i hope this little update was enough for you, if anyone is even reading.
amanda