The Chocolate At The End Of My Cornetto
I got about a year and a half of stuff to catch up on. I haven't posted in forever. I used the excuse that I was tired from work and shit and that was true, but really, I just got lazy.
I haven't worked in a month now. My boss they would be needing us again in February and to go back during the first week. I honestly don't know if I want to. It's not that I don't like the place, it's just that it feels like it's gonna be one of those jobs where I'm gonna wake up in 20 years and wonder what the fuck I've been doing with my life.
Hell, knowing me that'll happen in 20 days.
My friend Francisco keeps coming up with ideas for comics and stop-motion animations and a whole bunch of other stuff he wants to me to write. I'm all set to start some shit but he's never around when I try to call him.
Fuck I hate money! It's the worst thing in the fucking world.
I threw a baby shower for my friend Gaby at my family's beach house. It was actually kind of fun. I saw some old friends and got to geek out most of the day. I didn't even have to clean up and got to take most of the leftover cake home.
But here's what depressed me about that day: Talking to old friends and thinking about the friends I have now, I realized that everyone I know who's finished school is not doing anything. Nobody seems to have a job in their chosen profession and are pretty much willing to take anything right now.
I haven't even finished school and won't for a few more years, but I'm just starting to wonder what the hell the point of it is. I feel that when I finish I'll just be working in the same place anyway.
I feel cut off from the rest of the world. I'll admit it, I'm lonely. I don't even mind hanging out with someone I hate at this point. Granted I can escape into comics, games and TV but that's like a drug and the high only lasts so long before I come back to reality and need another fix.
God, I just fucking hate everything right now.
...
Feels good to finally be back on LJ though. Even if it's just a rant.
I'm gonna send out some e-mails.
Peace
I haven't worked in a month now. My boss they would be needing us again in February and to go back during the first week. I honestly don't know if I want to. It's not that I don't like the place, it's just that it feels like it's gonna be one of those jobs where I'm gonna wake up in 20 years and wonder what the fuck I've been doing with my life.
Hell, knowing me that'll happen in 20 days.
My friend Francisco keeps coming up with ideas for comics and stop-motion animations and a whole bunch of other stuff he wants to me to write. I'm all set to start some shit but he's never around when I try to call him.
Fuck I hate money! It's the worst thing in the fucking world.
I threw a baby shower for my friend Gaby at my family's beach house. It was actually kind of fun. I saw some old friends and got to geek out most of the day. I didn't even have to clean up and got to take most of the leftover cake home.
But here's what depressed me about that day: Talking to old friends and thinking about the friends I have now, I realized that everyone I know who's finished school is not doing anything. Nobody seems to have a job in their chosen profession and are pretty much willing to take anything right now.
I haven't even finished school and won't for a few more years, but I'm just starting to wonder what the hell the point of it is. I feel that when I finish I'll just be working in the same place anyway.
I feel cut off from the rest of the world. I'll admit it, I'm lonely. I don't even mind hanging out with someone I hate at this point. Granted I can escape into comics, games and TV but that's like a drug and the high only lasts so long before I come back to reality and need another fix.
God, I just fucking hate everything right now.
...
Feels good to finally be back on LJ though. Even if it's just a rant.
I'm gonna send out some e-mails.
Peace