Sep 28, 2006 00:28
It all comes back to the same shit. All the time.. Fucking Ashley.. I have been so happy with Dave. I'm extreamly happy. He has no idea. But I break down into a little ball and I can't get out when I feel threatened by her. I heard a song tonight... By hinder...
Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late
It's not fair of me to be pissed at him over a song.. but hearing him singing the song broke my heart. I didn't even realize what it was about. About a guy who's still in love with his ex girl friend even though he compleatly happy with the girl he's with. I feel like I can't compeat with her. Even though I know that they aren't going to be dating or anything anytime soon. I'm not being unfair by telling him to tell her to fuck off. Not anymore. Our relationship is better then great when she's not anywhere in thought.. Her calling the other day made my heart drop.. Not fucking again. If he asked me to tell any of my ex's to stop calling or talking to me I would do it in a heart beat..Even Nick.. the closest guy to me other then Dave.. Why is she so fucking important to him.. Fuck! I don't know how much more I can take of trying to fight this illusion. And it hurts me to try and be okay with him being her friend. I just can't... One person shouldn't be able to bring me this far down.. I just don't wanna lose him... and he doesn't see how much it hurts me... :( either because he doesn't want to see it... or he just refuses to.