the future
I have to say, I'm scared shitless of it. Between my mom's bankruptcy, Sandi and Nathen planning on moving out, and Nathen going over seas next year, Brandon's crazy ass mom who is twisting her mind to try to keep brandon as her little boy, I don't know what to do. I have a basic out line of the summer. work, sleep, eat, sleep, work, day off and sleep, see brandon, see friends, work, work, work, sleep.
correct me if I'm wrong, but normal seniors to be don't worry about having a house the whole school year. I might not finish school at Clay if they take our house before the year ends. Mom might just go to Maumee. I mean, I could try to stay with someone(s) or hell, rent an appartment if I have to. I don't mean for this to sound like a bitch fest, but it's really bothering me. I'm afraid that if I go to Maumee before I graduate, Brandon won't be able t come with me, and I'll only get to see him on the weekends. I know tons of people's relationships are, or were like that, like Heather and Ron, Sandi and Nathen. I know it's workable and doesn't stay like that forever.
College is the worst to think about. I want to go to an Insitute, not a regular university. If I have to take full on gen ed courses again I'll die. But The Arts Insitute for culinary is in Cincinnati. and Indianapollis. Either become a Pastery chef and work in a really nice bakery/cafe, or something with art, 3D stuff, metals and jewelry. I'm on the fence about it. Of couse I can still workin in a bakery/cafe while being in art school, and do pastery chef with freelance metals. or cafe/bakery. I worked with a pastery chef named Melissa a month or two ago when I did extra cradit for cullinary. She had actually goen to art school first, for 3D stuff. I mean, I can still draw pretty well, but that's not where my passion is. I'd rather have something sold, crafted at all angles. You can do that with chocolate and cakes and molding fondant. I wish I could be passionate about one area.
If I went with metals and jewelry, hen I have way more options closer to the family and Brandon. One of the Top ten reasons kids drop out os because they're to far from family, friends and their significant other.Bah...... I don't know.
After my senior year, I want to take a year off and live with brandon if we can aford it, just a small apartment near mom incase we get evicted :P. But I want to see what it's like living together, if we'll be able to handel it, like a test run, Just something for like, 6-10 months. I don't want to come out of college and have no idea how to live with him. Who knows, we might actually have a real argument for the first time since I met him.
I guess it's everything all together that's gonna hit me all at once very soon. Money, work, bills, schooling, bills....
This is why I tell everyone not to grow up.
correct me if I'm wrong, but normal seniors to be don't worry about having a house the whole school year. I might not finish school at Clay if they take our house before the year ends. Mom might just go to Maumee. I mean, I could try to stay with someone(s) or hell, rent an appartment if I have to. I don't mean for this to sound like a bitch fest, but it's really bothering me. I'm afraid that if I go to Maumee before I graduate, Brandon won't be able t come with me, and I'll only get to see him on the weekends. I know tons of people's relationships are, or were like that, like Heather and Ron, Sandi and Nathen. I know it's workable and doesn't stay like that forever.
College is the worst to think about. I want to go to an Insitute, not a regular university. If I have to take full on gen ed courses again I'll die. But The Arts Insitute for culinary is in Cincinnati. and Indianapollis. Either become a Pastery chef and work in a really nice bakery/cafe, or something with art, 3D stuff, metals and jewelry. I'm on the fence about it. Of couse I can still workin in a bakery/cafe while being in art school, and do pastery chef with freelance metals. or cafe/bakery. I worked with a pastery chef named Melissa a month or two ago when I did extra cradit for cullinary. She had actually goen to art school first, for 3D stuff. I mean, I can still draw pretty well, but that's not where my passion is. I'd rather have something sold, crafted at all angles. You can do that with chocolate and cakes and molding fondant. I wish I could be passionate about one area.
If I went with metals and jewelry, hen I have way more options closer to the family and Brandon. One of the Top ten reasons kids drop out os because they're to far from family, friends and their significant other.Bah...... I don't know.
After my senior year, I want to take a year off and live with brandon if we can aford it, just a small apartment near mom incase we get evicted :P. But I want to see what it's like living together, if we'll be able to handel it, like a test run, Just something for like, 6-10 months. I don't want to come out of college and have no idea how to live with him. Who knows, we might actually have a real argument for the first time since I met him.
I guess it's everything all together that's gonna hit me all at once very soon. Money, work, bills, schooling, bills....
This is why I tell everyone not to grow up.