May 04, 2008 15:24
(honestly i only write in this thing because of you now)
I dont think it would be wise to tell you that i love you. First, i am not completely at that level yet even though its such a strong feeling. And really, i dont want you to think to highly of yourself when u find out how fast i fell for you, since you are already think highly enough. but when i am with you i want to wisper it into your ear so you can hold me tight and say you feel the same. I wanna say it so you wont want to go away. I dont know how it ended up like this so fast. Maybe because we both just got out of a wonderful relationship and we both think we wont be able to find someone better. I wont lie, sometimes i think of him when i am with you and wonder if you will ever love me as much as he did. Very recently i relazed how much i love your family and just the atmosphere around your home. I feel so.... comfortable? whatever the feeling is, i like it and i want it. And i dont know if it is you, or just the fact that i want someone to fall inlove with again. I believe you think about your past relationship alot around me too. It does make me jealous. You two were amazing, and i wish i could do the same for you. Let me? I dont know what else to say. i wish you could read my mind, i dont know how to explain how i feel, but that i want to be with you and i love where we are going. So, i wont say i love you. But i can say... I want to love you.