Good bye
I never ment to fall inlove with you. infact, i started off hating you. You werent what i wanted and you couldnt give me enough. Yet we still ended up stuck. I am going to miss you, because i really thought i needed you. I dont want to say goodbye and i do. I hurt you. I didnt mean to. The only thing you can do now is to not forget me and i wont forget you. We cant be lovers anymore, and you wont be my friend. At least it ended welll.
I almost dont believe its fanilly over. all the off and ons. I am better then i thought i would be, but its only because this boy is really helping. I want to jump right into another relationship. but i know i need to take my time. I am falling fast though. but i think i will lock my heart so tight it will take forever to even come close to again. One side of me says to shut off the world of love forever. but i am not that kind of person. i am to positive and its impossible for me to give up my feelings. I need to be with people. I cant stand not having attention. But i cant just be in something for the attention, it has to be for the person. And i do believe i am heading the right way.
my train of thought is in too many places. i just want to be with him.