Gwarg...

[panda_hare]

I have to admit that I have been in an absolutely foul mood as of late. It could be any number of things: not being a part of something I want, being a part of something I don't want, smiling when I feel like screaming, biting my tongue til it bleeds, having everything I thought was certain become uncertain, feeling generally disassociated, distant and detached. I know this may seem slightly over-dramatic to some but you know when things start to pile up and all you want to do is rid your life of anything and everything that even slightly annoys you? Including things you were able to tolerate before hand? That's where I am. In the land of over-dramatic misery. Feel free to join me... there is always room for one more.

I'm just so tired... of everything. Can't I just quit? I am sure if will all be worked out by the end of the summer but if I end up feeling like this for the next month and a half is it worth it? Not much I can do about it I guess... maybe that's my real problem. The control freak is forced to do things that a) she can't control and b) if she could control would be done vastly different. Isn't it the truth, though, that we end up making our own lives harder. Sometimes I wish I had a stronger voice so I didn't end up in these situations and others times I'm grateful I can keep my big yap shut.

Alright, down-right disgruntled vague post over with now. I hope everyone else is well out here... or at least better than me.