what do you do...?
what do you do when the person that convinced you to quit drugs/quit drugs with you/your GF decides they want to start doin drugs again? Tell her she can't start doin drugs again and be a controllin douchebag? Start doing drugs yourself again along with her and completely disregard the efforts you both made for the past four months or so? Talk to her about it and find out why she wants to drug up her life again? I'll go with that one...answer: cause life is too hard and routine. I know that I personally quit cause i was tired of the lifestyle...doing the same damn thing everyday (try and get fucked up). I was strapped for cash cause i usually would end up blowing it all on some sort of mind-altering substance. My mom kicked me out of the house cause of the way i was living my life. My "friends" screwed me over and i'll admit that i screwed them over good too (which by the way i hope s water under the bridge...if not talk to me about it and i'll make whatever effort possible to squash it cause i don't believe in holding grudges). Pretty much my life turned to shit. I can't say that the same thing will happen to her or whoever else lives that way cause there a lot of people i know that were able to thrive and succeed that way. It was just some thing that we both talked about...and we did have similar reasons for wanting to quit. ugh...i want to intervene and tell her it's bad but i can't cause that would be wrong on my part to interfere with the decisions that she makes. I just want her to talk to me and show that she even somewhat cares about what i think about it...Carlotta i love you and want only want you to be happy. you were unhappy before so we changed our lives together. you're unhappy now but going back to the life that originally made you unhappy isn't going to fix it. I guarantee it. Whatever your decision may be, i can't do anything but respect it and i will always love you no matter what...i just don't know if i can be with someone that's living that way.
~tu amor
~tu amor