Letting some stuff out
I realized its been quite some time since Ive written in here. Not that anyone cares, unless theyre really bored, but still. I'm in the middle of Spring Break, and thoroughly enjoying NOT commuting, and NOT worrying about school. :)
I got to get out and far away from Loganville, got to see Amir and got to go shopping :) :) which was long overdue in both cases.
I feel not myself since Donald and I broke up. I feel lonely, bored, kind of unmotivated, like depression but avoiding the sadness. I feel like he is taking the easy way out by being slightly mad at me, or annoyed at the very least. Its much easier to get over someone when you can think or pretend there are bad things about them. or that they are bad people.
I really would like to try and not give a shit what society (aka everyone I ever talk to) thinks about people in theyre early 20's and having PITY for them if theyre not in a relationship. This pity coming from people who are either in a shitty relationship themselves, just for the sake of being in a relationship or just in a relationship for the wrong reasons all together.
I really wanna punch some people in the face when the ONLY thing they can think to talk about is 'how are you and so and so?' I mean I understand if that comes up in conversation amongst many other things, but FUCK, I AM in college, getting a degree in a fairly difficult major. and I DO have importance in this world NOT tied to a man. I'm just sick of all this bullshit with people thinking they have to get married at a certain age...or rushing into marriage. WHATS THE FUCKING RUSH????
and I'm even worse that I even fucking care...but its like I'm surrounded by people with completely opposite views than me...or people who are just fake. I guess I have to try and be fake too. Like trying to pacify them with a reason I'm not seeing anyone right now, instead of just saying 'I'm single' and letting the dead silence eat us away. Which basically means putting on a fake happy face on 24/7 around people I know care too much about that stuff.
Ok, rant over.
Tomorrow I get back into ATL, and will be crossing my fingers for good weather.
Hopefully I'll get to see my ladies this weekend...or at least get out of the house for a night.
peace
I got to get out and far away from Loganville, got to see Amir and got to go shopping :) :) which was long overdue in both cases.
I feel not myself since Donald and I broke up. I feel lonely, bored, kind of unmotivated, like depression but avoiding the sadness. I feel like he is taking the easy way out by being slightly mad at me, or annoyed at the very least. Its much easier to get over someone when you can think or pretend there are bad things about them. or that they are bad people.
I really would like to try and not give a shit what society (aka everyone I ever talk to) thinks about people in theyre early 20's and having PITY for them if theyre not in a relationship. This pity coming from people who are either in a shitty relationship themselves, just for the sake of being in a relationship or just in a relationship for the wrong reasons all together.
I really wanna punch some people in the face when the ONLY thing they can think to talk about is 'how are you and so and so?' I mean I understand if that comes up in conversation amongst many other things, but FUCK, I AM in college, getting a degree in a fairly difficult major. and I DO have importance in this world NOT tied to a man. I'm just sick of all this bullshit with people thinking they have to get married at a certain age...or rushing into marriage. WHATS THE FUCKING RUSH????
and I'm even worse that I even fucking care...but its like I'm surrounded by people with completely opposite views than me...or people who are just fake. I guess I have to try and be fake too. Like trying to pacify them with a reason I'm not seeing anyone right now, instead of just saying 'I'm single' and letting the dead silence eat us away. Which basically means putting on a fake happy face on 24/7 around people I know care too much about that stuff.
Ok, rant over.
Tomorrow I get back into ATL, and will be crossing my fingers for good weather.
Hopefully I'll get to see my ladies this weekend...or at least get out of the house for a night.
peace