shut up........
Every time it's the same penetrating feeling of unloved.
It follows me everywhere I go and it's everything I see. When I dream:
The love stares at me with beauty,
The love touches my hair,
The love makes me giggle,
The love brings back memories,
The love pleases itself,
The love moans,
The love is always there.
I want to cry but the tears have become numb and I no longer can feel my heart breathing when they roll down my cheek. I keep it all in memory for I only have the key but wish for the day that I have a microphone in my hand yelling out to the world that I CAN'T LET GO! I just can't let go, I just can't let go. Even after help, even after crying, even after getting upset I just can't LET GO!
With every breath I take I feel him in my lungs,
The shadow that follows me is no longer my own but his,
Every letter I type is about him,
The words I speak are to him,
When I pause the tv. I pray to have paused him as well for the taunts have become too much,
He thinks for me,
He eats for me,
He smiles for me,
and he loves for me.
"Come closer for I am no danger,
Sit for I am your friend,
Eat for I care for thee,
Speak for I listen,
Write for I read,
Sleep for I worry,
Touch for I love you.."
........is what he reads to me every day when I wake and every night when I sleep. The same words that have instilled in me ambiguity for what it means to share hands with another. Hold on because I won't stop crying, wont' stop upsetting and won't stop letting you get me every time.
It follows me everywhere I go and it's everything I see. When I dream:
The love stares at me with beauty,
The love touches my hair,
The love makes me giggle,
The love brings back memories,
The love pleases itself,
The love moans,
The love is always there.
I want to cry but the tears have become numb and I no longer can feel my heart breathing when they roll down my cheek. I keep it all in memory for I only have the key but wish for the day that I have a microphone in my hand yelling out to the world that I CAN'T LET GO! I just can't let go, I just can't let go. Even after help, even after crying, even after getting upset I just can't LET GO!
With every breath I take I feel him in my lungs,
The shadow that follows me is no longer my own but his,
Every letter I type is about him,
The words I speak are to him,
When I pause the tv. I pray to have paused him as well for the taunts have become too much,
He thinks for me,
He eats for me,
He smiles for me,
and he loves for me.
"Come closer for I am no danger,
Sit for I am your friend,
Eat for I care for thee,
Speak for I listen,
Write for I read,
Sleep for I worry,
Touch for I love you.."
........is what he reads to me every day when I wake and every night when I sleep. The same words that have instilled in me ambiguity for what it means to share hands with another. Hold on because I won't stop crying, wont' stop upsetting and won't stop letting you get me every time.