Pression

[pancakequeen]

I broke down and cried today. I didn't want to but it was the only way I could get myself back. I never had regrets like this before and it sucks. I hate wishing the past was different, because there is nothing I can do about it. It's got me so depressed. Tim cheered me up a great deal though before he feel asleep. :) I think the whole thing is worse because I'm sitting here alone on a Saturday night feeling sorry for myself. Ick. Elena and Marta invited me out to Polusa but I just didn't feel like going. So not like me. I need to find my old happy self. I hate this new Carolyn.

Well let me go hop on the crack one more time and then I'm off to bed.