That One Post Everyone Makes that's a crappy cup of coffee away from a group therapy intro
Okay, so here's the thing.
I have this issue where I freak out easily about what other people think about me. It's not so much social anxiety or past bad experiences or anything that I can go to a psychologist and be given a magic cure for -- it's more like I have this horrible tendency of a) over-thinking everything that I do, b) panicking the instant I say anything that could possibly offend someone, and c) saying "I'm sorry" like, fifty million times a day.
It's annoying.
And so I thought, All right, let's start this year off differently. Let's change something, and not just the change that I'm going for with my New Year's Resolution. (It's "Only Spend Money on Essentials", by the way, which is probably going to be a lot harder for me than "Work Out 5 Times a Week" like it was two years ago, simply because I have no spending sense WHATSOEVER.) So I'm changing it up, and this new LJ is the start.
I've had an LJ before. All of my friends from college knew about it, and half the time, I was only posting what I thought they'd want to hear. I also didn't feel like I could post what I wanted to because they were reading it, so even if all I wanted to write about was how a certain friend was being a complete bitch, I couldn't. Because she would read it. And then get pissy with me about how I called her a bitch. Which would essentially add to the fight by about a week, at least, and I think drama is retarded.
So I'm starting over.
This is my new journal. It's for me to write what I want, when I want. I don't care if people read it or not. I'll probably post fanfic occasionally, or maybe even original stuff. I'll probably bitch about my job, or my friends, or my life.
And hopefully, every post after this one will be a lot more interesting than this. :P
I have this issue where I freak out easily about what other people think about me. It's not so much social anxiety or past bad experiences or anything that I can go to a psychologist and be given a magic cure for -- it's more like I have this horrible tendency of a) over-thinking everything that I do, b) panicking the instant I say anything that could possibly offend someone, and c) saying "I'm sorry" like, fifty million times a day.
It's annoying.
And so I thought, All right, let's start this year off differently. Let's change something, and not just the change that I'm going for with my New Year's Resolution. (It's "Only Spend Money on Essentials", by the way, which is probably going to be a lot harder for me than "Work Out 5 Times a Week" like it was two years ago, simply because I have no spending sense WHATSOEVER.) So I'm changing it up, and this new LJ is the start.
I've had an LJ before. All of my friends from college knew about it, and half the time, I was only posting what I thought they'd want to hear. I also didn't feel like I could post what I wanted to because they were reading it, so even if all I wanted to write about was how a certain friend was being a complete bitch, I couldn't. Because she would read it. And then get pissy with me about how I called her a bitch. Which would essentially add to the fight by about a week, at least, and I think drama is retarded.
So I'm starting over.
This is my new journal. It's for me to write what I want, when I want. I don't care if people read it or not. I'll probably post fanfic occasionally, or maybe even original stuff. I'll probably bitch about my job, or my friends, or my life.
And hopefully, every post after this one will be a lot more interesting than this. :P