actually wrote this a while ago
what's happened to my life,
it seems as though nothing's goin' right,
ponderin' questions on my future,
keepin' me awake at night.
Askin' myself where I am now,
Seems like I've gone nowhere,
So whys it matter anyhow,
Thinking about where I should be,
Makes me lift an eye-brow.
My to-do list is full,
But my check boxes are empty,
Goin' to a community college,
What the fuck happened to UCSB.
I wanna say to myself,
Perseverance is the ONLY reason that i got here,
But i gotta look at myself,
I'm the reason that i only got HERE.
People ask me what my major is,
I gotta hold in tears,
I don't wanna do shit,
What the fuck did i do with 18 years.
My whole life i grew up seein' homeless people and sayin,
There's no way that'll be me, bitch, i gotta keep on playin,
But as i struggle and push myself on the wrong tracks,
When my train ends there will be no reason to look back.
I really tried for a while,
To stay in God's graces and presence,
But as i walked though that life,
I found our world is filled with pestilence.
More than once i found the girl,
That i was destined to be with,
Then God's Will would intervene,
And she would crush me with His fist.
In the last of these cases,
I fell more in love with every kiss,
Her touch, her scent, her laugh,
Warming each other up in nighttime mists,
I'd take her home and she would leave,
But departing would always be brief,
Because on every departure,
A new piece of her was always stuck to me.
When we broke up i played it cool,
When i got home i made a pool,
Of my own tears, and my own fears,
Knowing I wouldn't find anyone like her here for years,
To this day it holds true,
Went an entire summer still thinking of you,
This sure aint one of my successes,
But i know you gotta be checked off of my to-do.
Is this glass half empty?
Or is this glass half full?
If what's in the cup is alcoholic,
Give me five minutes for results.
My peace is created when i make my poetry-wrapped lyrics,
Hoping to help others with some troubles,
But if not then i pray it will at least uplift their spirits,
Then i hope they spread my work for some more positive results.
What i can truly be proud of,
is my decision to cancel girlfriends,
if you've read any of my other shit,
you'll notice it will only make you bend,
Most often it's not geared toward the positive,
You'll realize that when a relationship hits the end.
My advise for any and all of you,
Who have ever given a shit to what i write,
I do my artwork as a warning,
And to show you what is life.
The truely scary thing is,
My life aint even that bad,
I still have my grandma, my grandpa, my mom and my dad,
My lesson is that every life is harsh,
regardless what you have,
never look down upon yourself,
or up at someone else,
because they all struggled too,
Keep yourselves on the same shelf.
it seems as though nothing's goin' right,
ponderin' questions on my future,
keepin' me awake at night.
Askin' myself where I am now,
Seems like I've gone nowhere,
So whys it matter anyhow,
Thinking about where I should be,
Makes me lift an eye-brow.
My to-do list is full,
But my check boxes are empty,
Goin' to a community college,
What the fuck happened to UCSB.
I wanna say to myself,
Perseverance is the ONLY reason that i got here,
But i gotta look at myself,
I'm the reason that i only got HERE.
People ask me what my major is,
I gotta hold in tears,
I don't wanna do shit,
What the fuck did i do with 18 years.
My whole life i grew up seein' homeless people and sayin,
There's no way that'll be me, bitch, i gotta keep on playin,
But as i struggle and push myself on the wrong tracks,
When my train ends there will be no reason to look back.
I really tried for a while,
To stay in God's graces and presence,
But as i walked though that life,
I found our world is filled with pestilence.
More than once i found the girl,
That i was destined to be with,
Then God's Will would intervene,
And she would crush me with His fist.
In the last of these cases,
I fell more in love with every kiss,
Her touch, her scent, her laugh,
Warming each other up in nighttime mists,
I'd take her home and she would leave,
But departing would always be brief,
Because on every departure,
A new piece of her was always stuck to me.
When we broke up i played it cool,
When i got home i made a pool,
Of my own tears, and my own fears,
Knowing I wouldn't find anyone like her here for years,
To this day it holds true,
Went an entire summer still thinking of you,
This sure aint one of my successes,
But i know you gotta be checked off of my to-do.
Is this glass half empty?
Or is this glass half full?
If what's in the cup is alcoholic,
Give me five minutes for results.
My peace is created when i make my poetry-wrapped lyrics,
Hoping to help others with some troubles,
But if not then i pray it will at least uplift their spirits,
Then i hope they spread my work for some more positive results.
What i can truly be proud of,
is my decision to cancel girlfriends,
if you've read any of my other shit,
you'll notice it will only make you bend,
Most often it's not geared toward the positive,
You'll realize that when a relationship hits the end.
My advise for any and all of you,
Who have ever given a shit to what i write,
I do my artwork as a warning,
And to show you what is life.
The truely scary thing is,
My life aint even that bad,
I still have my grandma, my grandpa, my mom and my dad,
My lesson is that every life is harsh,
regardless what you have,
never look down upon yourself,
or up at someone else,
because they all struggled too,
Keep yourselves on the same shelf.