♥♥♥ Much Bleach Love Right Now ♥♥♥
*sigh* I feel some more emoness coming on. Also some sort of a rant. Just venting. Sorry ahead of time.
I'm seriously unhappy right now. I find myself just being meaner and meaner. I think staying here without any positive outside influence is affecting me. I am pissed off all the time, and when, somehow I manage to liven my mood, someone says or does something childish and stupid to spoil it. I'm probably being a little melodramatic here, but I've got a short fuse as of late, and don't want to be messed with.
For example, when Greg or Billy make some sort of rude comment to me, I really want to just shoot them in the face. Nicky too. I haven't been paid in almost a month, and while I did say [after the third week] just to wait until they owed me $200, and just pay for me to get momo's title sent off to Jeff City. Then tonight Nicky made a snide comment about her watching Zach Monday and Wednesday, so really she doesn't think that she should pay me for those days, and then I said maybe I should get paid for watching him on the weekends when those are supposed to be my days off, she pops off that she should take more out of what I make to pay for the things I use, i.e. laundry soap, body wash, toothpaste [I ran out the week before last and have been too broke to buy more], and other things. I then told her then maybe I should just go back home on the weekends as per the original plan, and she retorted that she would take the gas money out of what I make too. I'd almost not mind that, but even with gas being 2.19 now I think, she'd bloat that up and probably take away almost all of it. Because she's...da da dun...a bitch. So, with that, I really have no idea what to do. I've come close to just telling her that I want to stop babysitting and just go home and find a real job...but I really can't do that without a car and a license. I'm so twisted up about this I'm crying. I'm so confused and pissed off, I could scream. I hate being at the mercy of people. I want to be able to just get up and go. Not worry about who to take me and if I'm going to be able to get where I need to on time.
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Now onto lighter thoughts...
-I didn't know Psychic Lover [of sentai music fame] did the op for Witchblade too. Spiffy song. I ♥ them!!
-I've been catching up on Bleach [the manga]. Yes, Kubotite STILL owns my soul. I'm not sure if I really like the Arrancar yet, but damn Grimmjow is one hot bastard. But not as hot as Renji. NEVER. EDIT: Caught up. Damn. Why do you consume me with cliffhangers, Kubo? WHY? BTW, I am glad that Ishida is back. [Also, I thank God that Manga!Ishida doesn't suffer from the bad case of emo! that Anime!Ishida caught from that Bounto Beeyotch.] ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
-I'm still shopping around for a calender. The choices are so good, but even though I want a Tenipuri one, I really want another Bleach one. But to choose between the manga version or the anime one. I may just buy one to start the year off, then hit the others up after January, so that they're on sale. I could kick myself for not getting the Magiranger one last year. You can never have enough eyecandy calendars...LOL ♥♥♥♥♥
-The Avatar movie premieres tomorrow night. This makes me happy. I'm totally in love with how awesome it's getting right now.
-I'm also in major ♥ with Kyou Kara Maou right now. I DL'd the first 5 eps from mesmerisz. They are so full of WIN, I can't begin to express my ♥ for them. To anyone who hasn't seen KKM: watch it. It's also on YouTube. I think I might have peed myself a little.
-Also DL'd the first 3 of Princess Princess D. I've only gotten around to watching the first episode, but OMG, Adachi=♥. And the Hime-tachi too. I think 4 and 5 were just released, so when the neighbors turn on their wireless, I'm gonna go do some more serious downloading.
-Again, thanks to the neighbor's unsecured wireless, I've been on a music spree. There are times like these I wish that I had an ipod or a large mp3 player. ♥
-I'm so proud of myself. I think I may be getting the hang of drawing Ichigo. Rukia too. The last two pictures I drew of them were actually good, IMO. Now to focus on Ishida and Orihime.
-Speaking of Orihime, I can't decide if I should go ahead and be Renji or just buy some clips off of ebay [I scored $10 from a side sitting jorb], and be Hime. Renji would take more work and money than what I can spare...so maybe Hime is the more prudent choice at this juncture....
Well, I've kind of ran out of things to say, so um good night.
nekuranotensai and _snoogans_ many ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I'm seriously unhappy right now. I find myself just being meaner and meaner. I think staying here without any positive outside influence is affecting me. I am pissed off all the time, and when, somehow I manage to liven my mood, someone says or does something childish and stupid to spoil it. I'm probably being a little melodramatic here, but I've got a short fuse as of late, and don't want to be messed with.
For example, when Greg or Billy make some sort of rude comment to me, I really want to just shoot them in the face. Nicky too. I haven't been paid in almost a month, and while I did say [after the third week] just to wait until they owed me $200, and just pay for me to get momo's title sent off to Jeff City. Then tonight Nicky made a snide comment about her watching Zach Monday and Wednesday, so really she doesn't think that she should pay me for those days, and then I said maybe I should get paid for watching him on the weekends when those are supposed to be my days off, she pops off that she should take more out of what I make to pay for the things I use, i.e. laundry soap, body wash, toothpaste [I ran out the week before last and have been too broke to buy more], and other things. I then told her then maybe I should just go back home on the weekends as per the original plan, and she retorted that she would take the gas money out of what I make too. I'd almost not mind that, but even with gas being 2.19 now I think, she'd bloat that up and probably take away almost all of it. Because she's...da da dun...a bitch. So, with that, I really have no idea what to do. I've come close to just telling her that I want to stop babysitting and just go home and find a real job...but I really can't do that without a car and a license. I'm so twisted up about this I'm crying. I'm so confused and pissed off, I could scream. I hate being at the mercy of people. I want to be able to just get up and go. Not worry about who to take me and if I'm going to be able to get where I need to on time.
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Now onto lighter thoughts...
-I didn't know Psychic Lover [of sentai music fame] did the op for Witchblade too. Spiffy song. I ♥ them!!
-I've been catching up on Bleach [the manga]. Yes, Kubotite STILL owns my soul. I'm not sure if I really like the Arrancar yet, but damn Grimmjow is one hot bastard. But not as hot as Renji. NEVER. EDIT: Caught up. Damn. Why do you consume me with cliffhangers, Kubo? WHY? BTW, I am glad that Ishida is back. [Also, I thank God that Manga!Ishida doesn't suffer from the bad case of emo! that Anime!Ishida caught from that Bounto Beeyotch.] ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
-I'm still shopping around for a calender. The choices are so good, but even though I want a Tenipuri one, I really want another Bleach one. But to choose between the manga version or the anime one. I may just buy one to start the year off, then hit the others up after January, so that they're on sale. I could kick myself for not getting the Magiranger one last year. You can never have enough eyecandy calendars...LOL ♥♥♥♥♥
-The Avatar movie premieres tomorrow night. This makes me happy. I'm totally in love with how awesome it's getting right now.
-I'm also in major ♥ with Kyou Kara Maou right now. I DL'd the first 5 eps from mesmerisz. They are so full of WIN, I can't begin to express my ♥ for them. To anyone who hasn't seen KKM: watch it. It's also on YouTube. I think I might have peed myself a little.
-Also DL'd the first 3 of Princess Princess D. I've only gotten around to watching the first episode, but OMG, Adachi=♥. And the Hime-tachi too. I think 4 and 5 were just released, so when the neighbors turn on their wireless, I'm gonna go do some more serious downloading.
-Again, thanks to the neighbor's unsecured wireless, I've been on a music spree. There are times like these I wish that I had an ipod or a large mp3 player. ♥
-I'm so proud of myself. I think I may be getting the hang of drawing Ichigo. Rukia too. The last two pictures I drew of them were actually good, IMO. Now to focus on Ishida and Orihime.
-Speaking of Orihime, I can't decide if I should go ahead and be Renji or just buy some clips off of ebay [I scored $10 from a side sitting jorb], and be Hime. Renji would take more work and money than what I can spare...so maybe Hime is the more prudent choice at this juncture....
Well, I've kind of ran out of things to say, so um good night.
nekuranotensai and _snoogans_ many ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥