rawr
long rainy day at work. gotta love having to deliver mail when it's soaking wet and weighs a billion pounds. my back hurts.
i'm telling malaki that i'm not gonna practice with them tonight. i'm wearing myself out w/ working 6 days a week and practicing 5 days a week. two days a week with malaki and 3 days a week with snatch rivet, but after monday i will only have snatch rivet and then we'll go up to 4 days of practice. but right now, i only get saturday night and sunday to go out and/or rest. i'm not used to this lol.
damon and jack were making fun of me the other night because i have "man arms". basically all the lifting i do at work is starting to show... i don't like it hahahaha. but atleast it's keeping me in shape. so i guess i can't gripe too much.
i was talking to a friend on myspace the other night about how she's met this new guy and they have been going out and one night they were dancing in her driveway. and it made me realize how much i miss romance. i miss a guy trying to impress me. i miss being treated like a lady and not "one of the guys". i don't ever get that. but i want it. i want to be swept off my feet. i wanna dance in my driveway damn it!! i want flowers. i want to go out to dinner and share desert. i wanna feel special. i dunno, maybe it's because i don't have huge boobs, or wear super revealing clothing, or make up all the time. but should i have to? are those kind of guys really out of my league? ya know, a guy with a job, a car, and manners? i didn't used to think so, but i'm also getting older and maybe i settle too much. but i'm done with settling for whomever seems "nice". i wanna be surprised, i wanna be fucking amazed. and if that means that i'm gonna be lonely for a long time. well i'll just have to learn to deal with it.
i am sooooo pmsing right now. my emotions are everywhere and i dunno if i wanna cry, fight, laugh, hug, scream... ugh. i hate being a woman sometimes.
i'm telling malaki that i'm not gonna practice with them tonight. i'm wearing myself out w/ working 6 days a week and practicing 5 days a week. two days a week with malaki and 3 days a week with snatch rivet, but after monday i will only have snatch rivet and then we'll go up to 4 days of practice. but right now, i only get saturday night and sunday to go out and/or rest. i'm not used to this lol.
damon and jack were making fun of me the other night because i have "man arms". basically all the lifting i do at work is starting to show... i don't like it hahahaha. but atleast it's keeping me in shape. so i guess i can't gripe too much.
i was talking to a friend on myspace the other night about how she's met this new guy and they have been going out and one night they were dancing in her driveway. and it made me realize how much i miss romance. i miss a guy trying to impress me. i miss being treated like a lady and not "one of the guys". i don't ever get that. but i want it. i want to be swept off my feet. i wanna dance in my driveway damn it!! i want flowers. i want to go out to dinner and share desert. i wanna feel special. i dunno, maybe it's because i don't have huge boobs, or wear super revealing clothing, or make up all the time. but should i have to? are those kind of guys really out of my league? ya know, a guy with a job, a car, and manners? i didn't used to think so, but i'm also getting older and maybe i settle too much. but i'm done with settling for whomever seems "nice". i wanna be surprised, i wanna be fucking amazed. and if that means that i'm gonna be lonely for a long time. well i'll just have to learn to deal with it.
i am sooooo pmsing right now. my emotions are everywhere and i dunno if i wanna cry, fight, laugh, hug, scream... ugh. i hate being a woman sometimes.