mood - sad
did i ever mention that my mom hates me for no reason. whenever anyone does anything wrong here, she internalizes it. shunning everyone except my dad. even my cat can tell when it's happening. i hate when she gets like this. today, it was because i didn't feel like getting out of bed. i was awake, but i didn't feel like getting up. i don't know why she has to be like this. it tears me up inside. it slowly kills me. i can't wait to leave. that way, maybe we'll both be spared.