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i've been in school and just busting my ass off tryin to graduate. im almost there by the end of the week i'll have 40 credits to do and i honestly have faith in my self. for a moment i had lost it but some incredible people have come into my life that have totally changed the way i think. i am no seriously considering going to college. i never thought i wouldnt go but i knew i didn't want to. now i actually want to go. i feel like if i don't i won't be anything in my life.the last couple of weeks have been crazy. i seriously thought me going to moreno wouldnt change anything between my "real" friends but i was soo fuckin wrong. it showed me who they really are. it shows me who really would care if i was fuckin dead. its sad but its life. i feel like me and gaby although we didn't see each other for a year and i can actually say that she was the one who always called me when she was in moreno and i was at beverly. yea we didnt see each other and yea we barely talked but whenever i needed something or just to talk she was ALWAYS there and i wasn't. she would always call me and i wouldn;t wanna pick up because i thought we were two totally different people but at the end of it and i see where we both are now and we are still the greatest friends it just goes to prove a point. all my "real" friends don't call, don't write don't do shit so im done with everyone. i lost on great friend because of another friend's shit but i took the blame and my so-called friend didnt loose shit. they will 4ever be friends and me and that person are enemies. thats how the world works or actually thats how the world works for me. it always does shit to me that i cant get out of. but fuck it right? its life. i honestly hope no one reads this it's just satisfying to be able to just type shit and let all ur feelings out. i've met so many wonderful people in the last couple of months who are seriously so inspiring and are some of the people who are fuckin behind me more than my parents are. it's sweet. much love. i hope everyone is ok !
xoxoxo
i've been in school and just busting my ass off tryin to graduate. im almost there by the end of the week i'll have 40 credits to do and i honestly have faith in my self. for a moment i had lost it but some incredible people have come into my life that have totally changed the way i think. i am no seriously considering going to college. i never thought i wouldnt go but i knew i didn't want to. now i actually want to go. i feel like if i don't i won't be anything in my life.the last couple of weeks have been crazy. i seriously thought me going to moreno wouldnt change anything between my "real" friends but i was soo fuckin wrong. it showed me who they really are. it shows me who really would care if i was fuckin dead. its sad but its life. i feel like me and gaby although we didn't see each other for a year and i can actually say that she was the one who always called me when she was in moreno and i was at beverly. yea we didnt see each other and yea we barely talked but whenever i needed something or just to talk she was ALWAYS there and i wasn't. she would always call me and i wouldn;t wanna pick up because i thought we were two totally different people but at the end of it and i see where we both are now and we are still the greatest friends it just goes to prove a point. all my "real" friends don't call, don't write don't do shit so im done with everyone. i lost on great friend because of another friend's shit but i took the blame and my so-called friend didnt loose shit. they will 4ever be friends and me and that person are enemies. thats how the world works or actually thats how the world works for me. it always does shit to me that i cant get out of. but fuck it right? its life. i honestly hope no one reads this it's just satisfying to be able to just type shit and let all ur feelings out. i've met so many wonderful people in the last couple of months who are seriously so inspiring and are some of the people who are fuckin behind me more than my parents are. it's sweet. much love. i hope everyone is ok !
xoxoxo