Its only just a crush itll go away or maybe this is DANGER
Lately, actually, for awhile...ive been feeling down/depressed. I mean i get in that mood sometimes like once in awhile but ive been feeling like this for like a longg time and i dont know whats wrong or what will cheer me up. I have no drive to do things. Im bored. I feel like im always tired, when i have no reason to be. I feel alone. I feel like everyone has someone but me. I never cared about that, but now I do. Im so use to being without someone, but now I want someone to want me. I want someone to care for me. I want someone all to myself who always wants to hang out with me. Maybe i dont want someone maybe im just bored bc i dont do anything and this is all i think about, so i sit here and feel sorry for myself and it depresses me. I cant play soccer, i dont have a job, the only thing i need to do is school but i dont care about that anymore bc i have.. what 2 months left. I never realized how much soccer consumed my life(in a good way). It took my mind off of things and kept me busy. I miss my soccer friends...ALOT. I saw naila today and i havent seen her in a long time and it felt so good just to hug her. i miss her. I miss being able to run. i miss being able to feel my fucking leg. My knee just depresses me bc it seems like it will never get better and i know it will never be the same. Im just sooo bored. I dont know what to do with myself. Sometimes ill just drive. Ill take the longer way home bc i have nothing else to do and sooo much on my mind.
I have so much anger built up. I dont know where its coming from. Im not an angry person, actually i usually just brush things off and dont care bc shit like that isnt worth getting worked up about. But stupid bitches want to try and start shit. I usually wouldnt care about stupid girls like that but i think over time it just built up. Or maybe im just depressed and want to hit someone( i dont think i would but i want to) or ive discovered (from someone whose taken ap pysch) that i could be sexually frustrated, who knows but i need to figure it out fast bc i hate feeling angry and feeling low about myself.
I feel fucking lame because Im feeling sorry for myself. I need to stop!
I have so much anger built up. I dont know where its coming from. Im not an angry person, actually i usually just brush things off and dont care bc shit like that isnt worth getting worked up about. But stupid bitches want to try and start shit. I usually wouldnt care about stupid girls like that but i think over time it just built up. Or maybe im just depressed and want to hit someone( i dont think i would but i want to) or ive discovered (from someone whose taken ap pysch) that i could be sexually frustrated, who knows but i need to figure it out fast bc i hate feeling angry and feeling low about myself.
I feel fucking lame because Im feeling sorry for myself. I need to stop!