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How is it possible that my day can be going so well, and I return home to a piece of mail that totally changes my attitude? Oh that's because I let it!
The piece of mail? A baby shower invite. Bradley and Haley's shower. I'm hurt that I was not asked to help in anyway., oh haleys mom and step mom were asked to help. But not me. I simply get an invite in the mail. The shower is being thrown by Hagatha. It will be held at her church. I haven't seen this women is almost 4 years., 4 wonderful years! I tried to get out of the shower but I know it is not the right thing for me to do. I need to go. My only saving grace? Rick and the girls will be there! I need to put on my big girl panties and just go.
But I am stressing over it., stressing over what gift to buy. My parents bought us a big gift when we had madison. They bought our crib. I have made a couple blankets and bought some clothes. The girls are going to make some burp clothes. Each girl is giving something that represents them. Kaylee found a stuffed penguin for the baby and one of the burp clothes is being done in spiderman (madison loves spiderman).
I'm hesitant to buy an expensive gift though. Why? It stems from an email I received from haleys step mom. She said that she believes Haley will leave after the baby is born. She gave me all kinds of details about haleys past behavior and made predictions on her future behavior. So I feel like if I buy an expensive gift and she leaves him, then he will need help getting baby stuff for when he has the baby. Ugh! I hate being negative.
Speaking of negative! I have stupid heart palpitations. I'm sure it is because of my anxiety. But that only makes my anxiety worse. I hate it! I went off my anxiety meds and trying to just do counseling for my anxiety. Not easy,
I found the Gilmore Girls. Watched a couple of episodes and now I have decided to watch them all on Netflix.
Heading out to a couples retreat this weekend. I'm looking forward to getting away.
The piece of mail? A baby shower invite. Bradley and Haley's shower. I'm hurt that I was not asked to help in anyway., oh haleys mom and step mom were asked to help. But not me. I simply get an invite in the mail. The shower is being thrown by Hagatha. It will be held at her church. I haven't seen this women is almost 4 years., 4 wonderful years! I tried to get out of the shower but I know it is not the right thing for me to do. I need to go. My only saving grace? Rick and the girls will be there! I need to put on my big girl panties and just go.
But I am stressing over it., stressing over what gift to buy. My parents bought us a big gift when we had madison. They bought our crib. I have made a couple blankets and bought some clothes. The girls are going to make some burp clothes. Each girl is giving something that represents them. Kaylee found a stuffed penguin for the baby and one of the burp clothes is being done in spiderman (madison loves spiderman).
I'm hesitant to buy an expensive gift though. Why? It stems from an email I received from haleys step mom. She said that she believes Haley will leave after the baby is born. She gave me all kinds of details about haleys past behavior and made predictions on her future behavior. So I feel like if I buy an expensive gift and she leaves him, then he will need help getting baby stuff for when he has the baby. Ugh! I hate being negative.
Speaking of negative! I have stupid heart palpitations. I'm sure it is because of my anxiety. But that only makes my anxiety worse. I hate it! I went off my anxiety meds and trying to just do counseling for my anxiety. Not easy,
I found the Gilmore Girls. Watched a couple of episodes and now I have decided to watch them all on Netflix.
Heading out to a couples retreat this weekend. I'm looking forward to getting away.