hmm
am i letting myself get walked all over? i think yes...
alas that i am too lazy and laid back to do anything about it, i just don't care enough.
maybe that's better than stressin tho...
hmm so he does want it. last night was utmost confirmation of that. fuck guys with girlfriends tho. its funny because i'm now in the position of the other female that every girl in a relationship fears and hates and worries about. does she have any idea? what does she even look like? (not as good as me obviously cuz he wouldnt be doin this otherwise haha) how will this affect their relationship? man it's weird to see myself like that. oh well you gotta do what you gotta do. and its not like we've even really DONE anything... not yet anyway...
well at least the other boy appologized for ditching me on friday. no, not ryan, i mean the other time i got ditched on friday. (i think there's something wrong with me if TWO people ditch me in ONE day!) anyway i'll call him back later this week, just so he doesn't think he can do that shit all the time. muaha.
uhh i guess that's about it. basically my weekend sucked and i did nothing. work party in sp was chill tho, saw adrian and zizzle which was random as fuck... showed adrian the not tight chris from sca, it was fun to have someone else share the experience of being totally struck by the ridiculousness of him. hahaha what a strange boy!
FINALLY shoved the taper in my right ear, so hopefully i can gage it better now. next is 4's.
alas that i am too lazy and laid back to do anything about it, i just don't care enough.
maybe that's better than stressin tho...
hmm so he does want it. last night was utmost confirmation of that. fuck guys with girlfriends tho. its funny because i'm now in the position of the other female that every girl in a relationship fears and hates and worries about. does she have any idea? what does she even look like? (not as good as me obviously cuz he wouldnt be doin this otherwise haha) how will this affect their relationship? man it's weird to see myself like that. oh well you gotta do what you gotta do. and its not like we've even really DONE anything... not yet anyway...
well at least the other boy appologized for ditching me on friday. no, not ryan, i mean the other time i got ditched on friday. (i think there's something wrong with me if TWO people ditch me in ONE day!) anyway i'll call him back later this week, just so he doesn't think he can do that shit all the time. muaha.
uhh i guess that's about it. basically my weekend sucked and i did nothing. work party in sp was chill tho, saw adrian and zizzle which was random as fuck... showed adrian the not tight chris from sca, it was fun to have someone else share the experience of being totally struck by the ridiculousness of him. hahaha what a strange boy!
FINALLY shoved the taper in my right ear, so hopefully i can gage it better now. next is 4's.