i can't do it
I am so overwhelmed.
I am not making the grades i want, or need to get into the nursing program, and its making me so mad.
There are not enough hours in the day.
I keep for getting to do stuff and go to things and i am such a mess.
I love the girls in my sorority but the chapter needs to stop thinking that they are the only thing in life. I cannot go to all the greek sing practices, and meetings, and "strongly recommended" events.
There is no way i can do all of it and still pass my classes, and when it comes down to it that is why i am here, to make the grades, which is a lot harder than i had anticipated.
Last night they kept us at hands practice until 10:00, and i know that isnt late but i have a huge bio test on friday that i had every intention of studying for last night, and the girl leading it is like non of you have any reason to complain about work, i have a 15 page paper due tomorrow and im on page one. and im like well im fucking sorry if you think the stupid background dance for a stupid comeptition that we never win anyway is more important then doing well in school but some of us have other priorities.
Then i get so exausted at night that i cant do work or anything, so i lay in my bed with every intention of falling asleep but i have so much on my mind of things i need to do and things i need to do better and regrets and things that never happened that i can't sleep.
And i dont, the past 2 nights since i've been back i havent fallen asleep before 4 in the morning, and then im so tired all day, and i continue to forget stuff.
And even right now i should not be posting on livejournal, i should be showering, so that i can get in a good hour of studying before lunch and class.
I hate everything.
except my friends. i love my friends and i loved being home for break and seeing everyone. and my friends here are wonderful. i dont know what i would do with out them.
I am not making the grades i want, or need to get into the nursing program, and its making me so mad.
There are not enough hours in the day.
I keep for getting to do stuff and go to things and i am such a mess.
I love the girls in my sorority but the chapter needs to stop thinking that they are the only thing in life. I cannot go to all the greek sing practices, and meetings, and "strongly recommended" events.
There is no way i can do all of it and still pass my classes, and when it comes down to it that is why i am here, to make the grades, which is a lot harder than i had anticipated.
Last night they kept us at hands practice until 10:00, and i know that isnt late but i have a huge bio test on friday that i had every intention of studying for last night, and the girl leading it is like non of you have any reason to complain about work, i have a 15 page paper due tomorrow and im on page one. and im like well im fucking sorry if you think the stupid background dance for a stupid comeptition that we never win anyway is more important then doing well in school but some of us have other priorities.
Then i get so exausted at night that i cant do work or anything, so i lay in my bed with every intention of falling asleep but i have so much on my mind of things i need to do and things i need to do better and regrets and things that never happened that i can't sleep.
And i dont, the past 2 nights since i've been back i havent fallen asleep before 4 in the morning, and then im so tired all day, and i continue to forget stuff.
And even right now i should not be posting on livejournal, i should be showering, so that i can get in a good hour of studying before lunch and class.
I hate everything.
except my friends. i love my friends and i loved being home for break and seeing everyone. and my friends here are wonderful. i dont know what i would do with out them.