This week is one of the worsts.
I can't even be thankful for the weekend. It's going to be another sober one. And all I want to do is to get really, really drunk.
I have so much shit to do...hw, dance team, work, take home test, ect ect.
Then next week starts. And I'm not looking forward to THAT in the least.
Make it better. Make it better.
still not eating. still not sleeping.
Being sober with my 'friends' that I have here...it just doesn't make me happy. Not like it used to. I've lost/am losing connections. Losing closeness.
Losing closeness with not only the people I have/had here, but from home as well.
It's the closeness that keeps me going. Keeps me feeling secure. Keeps me feeling like I belong...somewhere...to someone. But I guess I only belong to my mom. 86% of the time.
it seems people are giving up on me. the ones I need, and want the most.
how's that for motivation?
I have so much shit to do...hw, dance team, work, take home test, ect ect.
Then next week starts. And I'm not looking forward to THAT in the least.
Make it better. Make it better.
still not eating. still not sleeping.
Being sober with my 'friends' that I have here...it just doesn't make me happy. Not like it used to. I've lost/am losing connections. Losing closeness.
Losing closeness with not only the people I have/had here, but from home as well.
It's the closeness that keeps me going. Keeps me feeling secure. Keeps me feeling like I belong...somewhere...to someone. But I guess I only belong to my mom. 86% of the time.
it seems people are giving up on me. the ones I need, and want the most.
how's that for motivation?