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in february, i met up with j & e for the first time in ages. we had a spectacular night and for months afterward i would send messeges and make calls. my attempts at another night out went completely unanswered. so i took them off of my friends list and deleted their numbers from my phone. why bother? the warm fuzzy feelings were quite obviously NOT mutual. because sometimes that happens.
the same thing is happening with jaimie. and i wonder if it's because those three are close and my outing them from my life was taken personally. i don't know. but i don't deal with cattiness and i certainly don't believe in cliques. so i am certain that it's time to say goodbye to a couple more people. because a friend isn't a friend if you have to hunt them down and beg.
it's a virtue to be able to voice your opinions, thoughts, and feelings. frankly, and without pretense. people with this virtue are so far and few between. i love my friends so firmly, believe in them wholeheartedly. but i'm a tit for tat kind of bitch. if you can't return the love, then why are we calling eachother friends? letting go is an acquired skill.
i had to get that out of me, if for no other purpose than to help me make up my mind to delete a few people from my life. i hope it stays warm and sunny all day so i can go for a bike ride after work. that would be fucking SWEET!! i've been so anxious to get the fuck outside.