R.I.P. Starblade
Matthew Paul Finnigan, May 12, 1984 ~ Sept. 22, 2010
Murdered in cold blood was not how I envisioned this ending. Here's another article corroborating this story.
You know, fuck you for stalking and harassing me for the past eight years because I showed you a moment of kindness when I was too young and naïve to know better when you got kicked off that webchat. Fuck you for the manipulative bullshit you pulled behind my back. Fuck you for the countless times you sniffed up my friend's asscracks so that you could force your way back into my view for however briefly, just to goad me into another moment of white-hot anger, that I might look at and pay attention to you once more, however briefly. And an especially big fuck you for insulting the people I loved by pretending to care about them just because I did.
And yet...now that you're dead, I don't feel like celebrating. I just feel numb. As much as you pissed me off, a part of me hoped you would get a clue: that you would learn a thing about social interaction, stop making excuses for your behavior, and grow as a person. Nothing you did warranted you being murdered. Smacked around, maybe. Having your Internet taken from you, perhaps. But not killed in cold blood.
I'm not going to miss you, but you didn't deserve this.
I hope you get a better hand the next time around.
Edit
A thing I want to mention, since someone though my reaction pertinent enough to link to on Wikifur.
My condemnation of Starblade revolves chiefly around how he treated me. Given his behavior toward me, I don't think it unfair for me to see him off with a one-finger salute. But to celebrate and mock his murder would have been a soulless and evil thing. It saddens me that there are people who think that because I am not sorry to see him go that I would even tacitly approve of the sickening things I have seen said and depicted since the news of Starblade's death has spread through the fandom.
This event has welled up within me a cornucopia of complicated and conflicting emotions, none of them very positive. Right now all I want is to close this painful and frustrating chapter of my life.
Murdered in cold blood was not how I envisioned this ending. Here's another article corroborating this story.
You know, fuck you for stalking and harassing me for the past eight years because I showed you a moment of kindness when I was too young and naïve to know better when you got kicked off that webchat. Fuck you for the manipulative bullshit you pulled behind my back. Fuck you for the countless times you sniffed up my friend's asscracks so that you could force your way back into my view for however briefly, just to goad me into another moment of white-hot anger, that I might look at and pay attention to you once more, however briefly. And an especially big fuck you for insulting the people I loved by pretending to care about them just because I did.
And yet...now that you're dead, I don't feel like celebrating. I just feel numb. As much as you pissed me off, a part of me hoped you would get a clue: that you would learn a thing about social interaction, stop making excuses for your behavior, and grow as a person. Nothing you did warranted you being murdered. Smacked around, maybe. Having your Internet taken from you, perhaps. But not killed in cold blood.
I'm not going to miss you, but you didn't deserve this.
I hope you get a better hand the next time around.
Edit
A thing I want to mention, since someone though my reaction pertinent enough to link to on Wikifur.
My condemnation of Starblade revolves chiefly around how he treated me. Given his behavior toward me, I don't think it unfair for me to see him off with a one-finger salute. But to celebrate and mock his murder would have been a soulless and evil thing. It saddens me that there are people who think that because I am not sorry to see him go that I would even tacitly approve of the sickening things I have seen said and depicted since the news of Starblade's death has spread through the fandom.
This event has welled up within me a cornucopia of complicated and conflicting emotions, none of them very positive. Right now all I want is to close this painful and frustrating chapter of my life.