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Everything just keeps getting more stressful. I thought my period began on Monday afternoon, but then I just stopped bleeding. I'm getting massive cramps, but my period has never been this light, as in invisible, before. I don't know if it's stress or the fact that I have no blood, but I'm just paranoid. I went to the student health clinic today and he really had no answer, so I'm just going to go get a pregnancy test just to rule it out. It seems pretty damn unlikely, since I had a normal period earlier this month, and there's really no chance of pregnancy from sleeping with Cyrus.
There are a few other things I want to write about, a couple decisions I made, but I can't do it in a public or even friends post. I need to be completely honest with myself, and despite acting like I don't really care what people think, I really can't be absolutely open with anyone except myself right now. So. Yeah.
Tuesday was pouring rain, and I went shopping. No umbrella. Completely soaked. It felt nice at first, walking in the rain, remembering I'm still alive. Then I was just cold and squishy. But I have my pretty new shoes now.
Cyrus text messaged me. I couldn't help but feel both giddy and upset. He wanted to hang out tonight, but period. I said maybe next week.
I went to class today, explained my deal to my professor. There was apparently no painting class today, but we have to have 6 landscapes done by Monday. Boo.
I canceled a movie date with this guy Lou. I don't know. I just don't feel myself still. I really need to clean my room too. I wonder why the dorm fairies haven't done it yet. I'm going to catch a bus to NY, hopefully see Orion, then go home so I can drive down to Philly with Nicole, meet up with Ming, and go to Scot's art opening. Yay!
Orion called too. He said that he and Keith want to throw me a party on Sunday the 10th, which is just peachy for me. Such sweethearts.
There are a few other things I want to write about, a couple decisions I made, but I can't do it in a public or even friends post. I need to be completely honest with myself, and despite acting like I don't really care what people think, I really can't be absolutely open with anyone except myself right now. So. Yeah.
Tuesday was pouring rain, and I went shopping. No umbrella. Completely soaked. It felt nice at first, walking in the rain, remembering I'm still alive. Then I was just cold and squishy. But I have my pretty new shoes now.
Cyrus text messaged me. I couldn't help but feel both giddy and upset. He wanted to hang out tonight, but period. I said maybe next week.
I went to class today, explained my deal to my professor. There was apparently no painting class today, but we have to have 6 landscapes done by Monday. Boo.
I canceled a movie date with this guy Lou. I don't know. I just don't feel myself still. I really need to clean my room too. I wonder why the dorm fairies haven't done it yet. I'm going to catch a bus to NY, hopefully see Orion, then go home so I can drive down to Philly with Nicole, meet up with Ming, and go to Scot's art opening. Yay!
Orion called too. He said that he and Keith want to throw me a party on Sunday the 10th, which is just peachy for me. Such sweethearts.