Just some little ramlings....
There's been a couple things on my mind lately- its a lot to explain but really i just need to get a little bit of it out lol
*For once in my life I would like for someone to put as much effot into me and I put into them... Someone other than Jamie- she really seems to be the only one that ever cares about my well being. some days i want to hide...
*I've lately always looked at things differently... people would ask me "why do you care michelle really... fuck them!" and my answer to them is usually "why DON'T you care is the question?" everyone always gives me shit for helping people, but really isn't that what you are supposed to do? Help the less fortunate? Be there for your fellow man? BUT- honestly, lately... I've been feeling that way too... why do I care?
*I wanna be skinny... so skinny my ribs pop out lol *not unhealthy but just take form* the female anatomy is beautiful- The shape. The curve. The softness- I just want to take better shape
The con is coming... Jared is coming... me = nervous... and really broke. Just when I thin I'm catching up and there might be a light at the end of the tunnel it starts to get cloudy again, and the world starts draining my bank book again. WHY ME!?? WHY CANT I EVER HAVE MONEY!? WHAT IN THE HOLY HELL IS WRONG WITH ME THAT I CANT SAVE ANY MONEY OR HAEV MONEY PUT ASIDE FOR A RAINY DAY? I get very frustrated that I have so much to pay and so little money to pay it with.
Some days life is so hard... I know one day things will be easy- I just have to keep praying that day will come soon
*For once in my life I would like for someone to put as much effot into me and I put into them... Someone other than Jamie- she really seems to be the only one that ever cares about my well being. some days i want to hide...
*I've lately always looked at things differently... people would ask me "why do you care michelle really... fuck them!" and my answer to them is usually "why DON'T you care is the question?" everyone always gives me shit for helping people, but really isn't that what you are supposed to do? Help the less fortunate? Be there for your fellow man? BUT- honestly, lately... I've been feeling that way too... why do I care?
*I wanna be skinny... so skinny my ribs pop out lol *not unhealthy but just take form* the female anatomy is beautiful- The shape. The curve. The softness- I just want to take better shape
The con is coming... Jared is coming... me = nervous... and really broke. Just when I thin I'm catching up and there might be a light at the end of the tunnel it starts to get cloudy again, and the world starts draining my bank book again. WHY ME!?? WHY CANT I EVER HAVE MONEY!? WHAT IN THE HOLY HELL IS WRONG WITH ME THAT I CANT SAVE ANY MONEY OR HAEV MONEY PUT ASIDE FOR A RAINY DAY? I get very frustrated that I have so much to pay and so little money to pay it with.
Some days life is so hard... I know one day things will be easy- I just have to keep praying that day will come soon