I hate everything.
Well rememer the 4 pounds I was happy to lose that one week after plateauing for so long?? Apparently that was a funny joke my body was playing on me because those 4 pounds reappeared magically! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?!?!?!? I hate myself. I've been workingout at this new gym now for about 6 WEEKSSSS!! I am THE EXACT same weight NOW as I was when I STARTED 6 WEEKS AGO!!! And I workout SO hard!! Elliptical, treamill, all kinds of resistance weight training, ab crunches... 4-5 times per week. I LIVE at that fucking gym. Literally, LIVE there. I'm always there!!! And I eat sooooo well. Fruits, veggies, yogurt, oatmeal, nuts, high-protein... what the fuck is my problem!?!?! I am trying so hard here to do it the "correct" way and not completely fast but I feel myself getting that useless feeling again where I may need to starve for weightloss again... WHY isnt my regular program working!?!? I really fucking hate myself. I am trying so hard to lose weight the PROPER way and its ALL FOR NOTHING. My measurements are basically the same, my weight is the same... everything is the same as it was 6 weeks ago when I first started at the gym. I think I wanna fast again sooooo bad... because at least then I lost weight.