Today was the day.
Ok, lets be serious here. Today was the day. I haven't weighed myself since the last week in September where I was about 150lbs. My hair was falling out and I was fucking miserable. So today was the first time I've weighed myself in over 3 months... gained. And I knew I would gain some weight going from 0 calories per day to 1200 calories per day. BUT, I am not unhappy. I am actually quite satisfied to know where I stand now because I hated wondering how much I was. The GOOD thing about this is that my weight I gained... was mostly MUSCLE!!! Which makes me happier than anything!!! My bodyfat% increased by 1%, not the best, but I can live with that. My lean bodymass (muscle) increased by like 8-10lbs!!! And with all the workingout I do, I am positive that's the truth! So when I saw the weight on the scale, I didn't even go crazy because I knew it was a lot of muscle mass I gained... My head can finally rationalize that its ok to gain numbers on the scale as long as its muscle mass! So I am not upset. I know I have a lot more work to do to get to where I want to be... but the bright side of this is that I can still fit into a size 5 and 7 pair of pants just like before. If I can be toned and muscular and fit into a size 5 and 7 at my current weight, then fuck it! Its all good for now. Current stats:
Height: 5'11" talllll
Current weight: 162lbs
Lowest weight recently: 143lbs (July)
Lowest weight ever: 130lbs
Short term goal: Under 155lbs
Long term goal: 143lbs
Final goal: Under 130lbs
Mood: Pleasant
