Because I changed the lightbulb?
I started watching Brothers & Sisters about a month ago and I'm upset I had not found this show sooner. I did not grow up with a big family and for much of my younger life the politics of my parents were my politics. Today still, I am a fiscal conservative but I have quickly and easily embraced socially liberal ideas because of their non-discrimination. And this is not me going out saying that all Conservatives are horrible and are not good people socially, but the Republican party is a party controlled by the older generation, I think a huge part of that is the kids who were raised as such know what pain-in-the-asses our parents can be when we don't agree with them. BUT, I got sidetracked. I love this show. I love the family dynamic and the fact that despite their arguments, the fact that there is yelling and problems they always manage to work through them and they always manage to be honest. I love this show because it is a contrast of everything my family wasn't.
Another reason I started watching this show was because a friend on Tumblr posted a picture of two of the main characters. Scotty and Kevin (pictured above) and I was interested to see how American television would pose a same-sex couple. I was really surprised. They are a main part of the story (with it following Kevin Walker's life) and the writers and producers did not 'put them in the closet,' so to speak. They have their own problems just like the other members of the family and their lives are not perfect but at the end of the day they are happy.
Scotty reminds me a lot of me too, always wanting to fix things, wanting to make people happy no matter what the cost. At one point in the series (where I'm at now) Kevin complains about him getting off so late and he merely shoots back with a "Yes, I cook. But I also clean. I would make such a good husband -- not that I'm hinting at anything." It seems silly but to me that was a cute moment. But also because I do things like that. I say things about the future that I would like to happen but that doesn't mean I'm pressuring the person, that if it doesn't happen I will be unhappy. I know the past week has been difficult and I've been grumpy but everyday there has been something to be happy about. Time spent with a friend, movies, a moment of singing at work. My life is not bad, I don't /need/ things to keep me happy, nor do I need someone to make me happy. I'm a person who would rather be alone then to risk putting myself out there with the knowledge that I will mess up and I will make detrimental mistakes and I will hate myself and I may lose someone I love.
This really has no real point, it's part review, part me saying I'm jealous of the relationship of Kevin and Scotty.
They argue, they fight, Scotty is jealous and possessive and Kevin is a bastard and a workaholic. But both are willing to admit they are wrong, both acknowledge the fact that life without the other one would be far more empty. That a stupid argument is just that. The relationship is cliche in terms of Scotty being the dotting househusband and Kevin being the breadwinner but at the same time I think everyone has felt that in a relationship.
But their relationship wasn't perfect. In the beginning Scotty was the one in love, Kevin never emotionally invested in anything took advantage of that. They broke up, didn't see each other for a year and when they ran into each other again it was rocky. Their entire relationship is strange from what I have reached but what I love is that they keep coming back together. I'm not naive, I believe you can love many people and that probably you will love a collection of people throughout your life...but I also believe that there is a person there for you. One person and what is tragic is that I also believe that you may not be that one persons true love.
But it is nice for me to see that true love does exist (even if it is only in the television shows.)
My favorite quote (the one that was paired with the .gif above when I first heard of this show was this):
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Kevin: You know, it's like all these crazy people in my family are in this insane freefall and completely incapable of being happy. And then I look at Saul, who... who's missed his life entirely. And I realize how lucky I am because I get to come home to someone who is kind and caring, and who changes the lightbulbs... and... marry me.
Scotty: What?
Kevin: I mean it. I don't want to wait. I want to make this official.
Scotty: Because I changed the lightbulbs?
Kevin: No, well, yeah, kind of. Because, Scotty, that's who you are. I'm completely, completely in love with you. I even love the things about you that I hate. Because you make me feel like I don't have to be anyone other than who I am. And to me, that feels like family, and that's what I want us to be. I want us to be a family because that never ends. I'm doing this all wrong. [gets down on his knees] Scotty, I'm asking you. Will you please marry me?
Scotty: Yes. Yes, Kevin, I'll marry you.
And it gives me hope that everything will work out the way it should.