Mrs. Scrooge
Dear Journal,
Bah Humbug! Here I am, the Monday before Christmas and fuming. Why? The "Christmas Spirit" has come around and bit me in the behind.
Up until now I was listening to 104.5 (Christmas music) day in and day out. The kids and I sang in the morning and after school. I was whistling Christmas tunes constantly. I have been extremely excited for Christmas all the way up until about an hour ago. I know that this is just a moment of frustration. I love Christmas so much. The stress of everything has just slowly gotten to me. This entire weekend was spent shopping and wrapping. I enjoyed both of them very much. Although, I found myself getting snappy with Chad. He didn't do a single thing wrong. In fact, he was a great help with picking out gifts, shopping, and wrapping. I realized that I was starting to get stressed about everything that we were doing and everything that was left to do.
We still need to buy a few more gifts for some friends, wrap a few that are left, buy everything for Christmas dinner, clean for Christmas dinner, cook for Christmas dinner, etc. All of the preparation wasn't really what was stressing me out (although it did play a role) until I looked at our bank this morning. All of that shopping has really taken a hit. We still have money in our account and we will be fine. Although, being low makes me very nervous. After looking at the bank I realized I wouldn't be able to purchase a folding table and chairs for Christmas dinner. I was immediately devastated. I really didn't want to make my family sit on the couch and floor for their Christmas dinner. I am luckily going to be able to borrow a table and 6 chairs from friends. I am still 5 chairs short. I found an add on Craigslist for folding chairs for $6 a piece, so, If we can't find any other friends with chairs we may have to just buy some.
It's funny how a low key Christmas has caused me so much stress. Although, there is no one to blame but myself. I am the one that is letting myself get stressed. Everything will work out fine. I know it will. Chad gets paid on Friday and we will be fine. We have enough dinners to get us through the week.
Ok, I think I'm done venting. Please don't get me wrong. I am very excited for Christmas. We bought each of the kids one big gift and then four smalls ones. Chad and I did the same for each other, 5 each with one big one. I am almost busting at the seems with anticipation for Christmas Day! I want them to open their gifts so bad! I absolutely love giving people gifts. It makes me so happy to see the smiles on their faces. Allie is going to LOVE her new bike! We got Logan a Wii and Mario Kart! I am looking forward to the short week as well!
Although, I know that my stress is my fault and that everything will be fine I am going to say that my mood is 'cranky'. My crankiness will wear off as the day goes on.
Until Next Time,
Jess