Ugh
Today was the worst yet, but at least it seems to be over now. The project management community at work is smaller by at least 40%, which feels like brutal trimming, but without the money to invest in new projects, there's nothing for folks to do... here's hoping the economy picks up, and soon. The hard part was saying goodbye to a woman who was one of the most sympatico work colleagues I've ever experienced... at least I'm confident that we'll stay in touch. She's been laid off and rehired before, but this time she's determined to find something that really fuels her spirit, and doesn't just bring in a good paycheck. Go her! I've refrained from letting my boss know that every single person I've ever worked for at Schwab has now been laid off - she's having a hard enough time right now without me making her jumpy. :)
I wasn't actually that concerned about losing my own job, but I am very concerned about the job I've kept morphing into something that I can't be inspired by. I've been incredibly lucky in my career here, and my various jobs have continually evolved until, for the last 18 months, I've been able to do EXACTLY the kind of work that I feel I'm best at - stuff that keeps me excited day after day and glad to be spending so much of my life at it. Now it looks like I'll be inheriting my friend's work, and that work (and my previous responsibilities) will be shifting in response to the reorg. I know change is the only constant, but I'm not thrilled with the direction of this change, and not sure I'll be able to tolerate... but of course, will wait and see. I just hope that, in six months, I'm not wishing I'd been packaged out (a layoff package for me would have me set for close to a year, while there's not much at all if I end up quitting.) sigh.
Good news is I'm reengaged in scribal stuff, and kicking booty on some of the more run of the mill stuff I've committed to, hopefully freeing up my plate for what I really want to be working on (the project that I aastg and tanka gave me some excellent coaching on). I REALLY want to take a week off and just work on that, but will have to be content with the odd weekend here and there. sigh part deux.
And then there's other SCA stuff - I had such a lovely, lovely time at 12th Night and am really saddened to be missing Estrella and March Crown - it feels like it will be forever before I see big crews of you all again! BUT, totally looking forward to seeing Steve's little brother get married out in Texas March 21, and the truth is, Estrella with Xander but no backup from maydaybabe and Kitty would be a little daunting/frustrating anyway. So I'm sure it's all for the best, I just need to try harder to enage my own booty and get out to see folks outside the society. how hard can it be???