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I'm going to a crew screening tonight for a movie i worked on last august. this will be the first time i see something i spent several weeks on in the all together. i've seen a little bit of one film, and i've seen the music videos, but that's all. i'm never around and available at the right time.
Watching movies has been making me anxious. i thought it was just when i was working, but now that i've been out of work for three months the anxiety is OVERPOWERING. i'm hoping this will be cool cos i'll get to watch it with a bunch of people who were also part of the struggle and who i haven't seen in a while.
Truths
#1: Never meet your heroes.
#2: If you like watching movies, don't work on movies.
#3: Wrap parties make poor dates.
I got the feeling during the shoot that it wasn't going to be a good movie. When I went in to meet for the job I was really excited about the project cos I thought the script was the most hilarious thing I had ever read. "Over the top John Waters," is what I told myself. And then, of course, it turned out to be a totally serious bit of a morality play. I spose there is cult potential.
I've been trying to decide whether to call up a random boy to take with, or to bring Dain. I should prolly bring Dain cos he is my soul shadow and I think he would get a kick out of a screening while he's in the city; and cos there's a good chance any boy i would take would never talk to me again after seeing this bit of misogyny i spent six weeks of my life working on. Well, five. I keep forgetting that I left early to go on to the tv show.
I hope everyone likes me and is nice.
I haven't had to be social in so long.
Watching movies has been making me anxious. i thought it was just when i was working, but now that i've been out of work for three months the anxiety is OVERPOWERING. i'm hoping this will be cool cos i'll get to watch it with a bunch of people who were also part of the struggle and who i haven't seen in a while.
Truths
#1: Never meet your heroes.
#2: If you like watching movies, don't work on movies.
#3: Wrap parties make poor dates.
I got the feeling during the shoot that it wasn't going to be a good movie. When I went in to meet for the job I was really excited about the project cos I thought the script was the most hilarious thing I had ever read. "Over the top John Waters," is what I told myself. And then, of course, it turned out to be a totally serious bit of a morality play. I spose there is cult potential.
I've been trying to decide whether to call up a random boy to take with, or to bring Dain. I should prolly bring Dain cos he is my soul shadow and I think he would get a kick out of a screening while he's in the city; and cos there's a good chance any boy i would take would never talk to me again after seeing this bit of misogyny i spent six weeks of my life working on. Well, five. I keep forgetting that I left early to go on to the tv show.
I hope everyone likes me and is nice.
I haven't had to be social in so long.