Just...
There aren't really words to describe. . . So....
I just want to scream! I want to give it all up! I want to leave this place and never come back!!
I haven't really been doing well, at all. And the reason I don't get off my butt and DO something about the way I feel is because I'm kind of just hoping that one day I get the guts enough to just end it all.
I'm not suicidal, no, I'm just tired. I'm tired of the daily fight. I'm tired of living with 2 of the people who molested me. I'm tired of dealing with stupid people, who call me things like "slut" and "whore," despite the fact that I DID NOTHING! I am just so tired of the fight. The day. This life. I want to just have another. Can I have a different one?
Right now, I'm just blatantly terrified of myself. But, I know that nothing will happen, because I'm too exhausted to try and do anything about my self-loathing.
UGH.
I just want to scream! I want to give it all up! I want to leave this place and never come back!!
I haven't really been doing well, at all. And the reason I don't get off my butt and DO something about the way I feel is because I'm kind of just hoping that one day I get the guts enough to just end it all.
I'm not suicidal, no, I'm just tired. I'm tired of the daily fight. I'm tired of living with 2 of the people who molested me. I'm tired of dealing with stupid people, who call me things like "slut" and "whore," despite the fact that I DID NOTHING! I am just so tired of the fight. The day. This life. I want to just have another. Can I have a different one?
Right now, I'm just blatantly terrified of myself. But, I know that nothing will happen, because I'm too exhausted to try and do anything about my self-loathing.
UGH.