MERLIN FINALE
now that i've completely cried all the the tears i have in me, and given myself a headache, and also did some fan-literary vomiting of the first fic i've posted in years, it begins. jesus what can i even say about the season finale, except it was horrible and beautiful and amazing and awful and i cried steadily through it. i don't even have useful criticism because i was sobbing through it all and honestly most of it was through this massive waterfall of tears and grossness.
i think the worst part of the all the frustration was that in the end the team behind merlin knew exactly what we were frustrated about. the what the hell happened between merlin & arthur? shit, you get a whole episode of them being heartfelt together. (in the dozen-ish years of friendship, merlin gets exactly two days of being honest with arthur. TRAGIC) and what the fuck happened with morgana?? yes, merlin does indeed blame himself for what morgana's become. (notes on morgana since katie mcgrath has come such a long artistic way. brava, i wish they didn't fuck your storyline up, because i might have believed it, because mcgrath makes me believe in the final product.) and the FUCKING REVEAL. arthur does indeed ask the right questions and accepts in the right way and merlin explains it in exactly the right way. and arthur does apologize for being an asshole, and they spend the entire time in each other's arms and jesus arthu dies in merlin's arms after asking him t please hold me nd that thank you. o god bradley james, you are perfect, and so are you colin morgan, and god but you two light this show up and break my heart like it's nothing. anyway, they spend it all basically curled against each other, as men who have come into their destiny, and i'm glad there was no forcing a nod to gwen at all because while i like the idea of the royal couple, the relationship between arthur and merlin is something-fucking-else. gwen by the way is fucking amazing, and is gonna be a fucking amazing queen. like honestly, terrific, best i've liked her since series 1. ugh, when she gets commanding, and i think of the cute stuttering girl o god i'm gonna cry again whoops no tears left. all the pretty stuff that compares season 1/season 5 is KILLING ME.
a big part what made this show rich is that the arthur, merlin, gwen, and morgana quartet compare so complex-ly (shut up i'm sad) with each other, and the internal character journeys might have been were totally more epic than the external ones. they pair up in every way so well to illuminate each other, as friends, as master-servant, as soulmates (haha not a/g), as children of uther pendragon, as magic users, as orphans and half-orphans, as sisters, as noble, as common, as men, as women, as good and evil and difficult in-between.
also, lol PERCY.
anyway i spent 5 years watching the same episode (merlin needs to save arthur by magic! in secret!), and the one grand epic change is also the end, and it hurts so much. there might be some philosophical nietzschean eternal return shit in that. fuck. the thing was a gigantic apology to our frustration, and they fucking made reincarnation and pretty much all modern AUs canon. yeah. i like that the distinguishing line for my merlin fic bookmarks got completely obliterated. no further comment on the modern-day emrys (jesus but he looks amazing and not ridiculous in modern clothes) except i've already fan-literary vomited my two cents and want to write more, more, more.
god it was beautiful
everyone died though and i can't believe merlin's literally waiting for his other half to return. god that shit is CANON. i can't
meow
my heart is broken
i think the worst part of the all the frustration was that in the end the team behind merlin knew exactly what we were frustrated about. the what the hell happened between merlin & arthur? shit, you get a whole episode of them being heartfelt together. (in the dozen-ish years of friendship, merlin gets exactly two days of being honest with arthur. TRAGIC) and what the fuck happened with morgana?? yes, merlin does indeed blame himself for what morgana's become. (notes on morgana since katie mcgrath has come such a long artistic way. brava, i wish they didn't fuck your storyline up, because i might have believed it, because mcgrath makes me believe in the final product.) and the FUCKING REVEAL. arthur does indeed ask the right questions and accepts in the right way and merlin explains it in exactly the right way. and arthur does apologize for being an asshole, and they spend the entire time in each other's arms and jesus arthu dies in merlin's arms after asking him t please hold me nd that thank you. o god bradley james, you are perfect, and so are you colin morgan, and god but you two light this show up and break my heart like it's nothing. anyway, they spend it all basically curled against each other, as men who have come into their destiny, and i'm glad there was no forcing a nod to gwen at all because while i like the idea of the royal couple, the relationship between arthur and merlin is something-fucking-else. gwen by the way is fucking amazing, and is gonna be a fucking amazing queen. like honestly, terrific, best i've liked her since series 1. ugh, when she gets commanding, and i think of the cute stuttering girl o god i'm gonna cry again whoops no tears left. all the pretty stuff that compares season 1/season 5 is KILLING ME.
a big part what made this show rich is that the arthur, merlin, gwen, and morgana quartet compare so complex-ly (shut up i'm sad) with each other, and the internal character journeys might have been were totally more epic than the external ones. they pair up in every way so well to illuminate each other, as friends, as master-servant, as soulmates (haha not a/g), as children of uther pendragon, as magic users, as orphans and half-orphans, as sisters, as noble, as common, as men, as women, as good and evil and difficult in-between.
also, lol PERCY.
anyway i spent 5 years watching the same episode (merlin needs to save arthur by magic! in secret!), and the one grand epic change is also the end, and it hurts so much. there might be some philosophical nietzschean eternal return shit in that. fuck. the thing was a gigantic apology to our frustration, and they fucking made reincarnation and pretty much all modern AUs canon. yeah. i like that the distinguishing line for my merlin fic bookmarks got completely obliterated. no further comment on the modern-day emrys (jesus but he looks amazing and not ridiculous in modern clothes) except i've already fan-literary vomited my two cents and want to write more, more, more.
god it was beautiful
everyone died though and i can't believe merlin's literally waiting for his other half to return. god that shit is CANON. i can't
meow
my heart is broken