Looking from the outside into a love triangle
It seems to be that nothing is out of the ordinary in my household. Seems like there is always something going on, and everyone is involved. I'm going to tell you a story, but its going to be kind of long, so get ready for it. However, I'll let you up to speed as to whats been going on for a while now.
I am currently unemployed and seeking work. Halloween is over so may the work begin. Luckly for me, Staples is hiring full time overnights, so I might actually have a chance with that.
I've been living off of nothing for the past month, and if it weren't for yesterdays events, I would already be out of food and would not have eaten in a few days.
Bittersweet is going in for her "fixing" on Wednesday and has to fast and has to remain in my room for two weeks which means that I have no choice but to clean my room. Poor sweetheart. Its going to be Hell for her.
Had to go to my investor and take out more money. I didn't want to, but I had no choice. Rent is due and Bittersweet needs that operation come Hell or highwater.
And, I had to see the light in my friends eyes die because he lost his girlfriend to my other friend and I was thrown into the middle of it for my "Neutral" position.
Yeah, all Hell broke loose yesterday and it wasn't pretty.
Basically...
"Val", "Thomas" and "Amanda" are in a bit of trouble. Here's how it all started. Val goes to school with Amanda and has feelings for her. As time goes on, they eventually get together and decide that they might go out for a bit to see how things may turn out. As it turns out, Val does something terribly wrong and appologizes for it, but Amanda doesn't feel the same. After a little fight, things get settled and everyone is friends.
Before Val and Amandas fight, an open invitation to Tuscons is brought out to the group and we go and watch a Blues-ish band perform. I go along with Val, Thomas, Amanda, "Suzy", "Veronika" and "David" and actually had a reasonable time. I didn't like the band too much, but thats not important.
Val introduces Amanda to Thomas and before everyone at the table knows it, Amanda and Thomas decide to go out for a bit (which ends up being over 2 hours) of a walk and talk a bit. By the time that the night is through, Amanda and Thomas have really hit it off. REMEMBER THOUGH : Val and Amanda are still somewhat pre-fight and haven't yet decided wether or not they're going to be going out.
So, Val and Amanda go out and fight a bit, and thats when everything starts happening. Thomas ends up getting Amandas number and starts showing interest in her. Amanda, does the same. Now, as time goes on, Amanda and Thomas end up really liking eachother and a huge decision has to be made.
Amanda starts to get Val to drive her everywhere and basically, in my eyes, uses him as her fucking taxi. I am a bit angry over this, but after yesterday, I went a little easier on her. In the past few days, a lot has happened, a lot that I do know and a lot that I don't. Basically, the shit hit the fan yesterday in the living room down stairs.
A few days ago, Val decided that Thomas was the better man in this situation and decided to let go of Amanda because he thought there was nothing he could do about it and because he would rather see Thomas happy than himself. I found out about this yesterday when Amanda and Val came over around 11am or so. We shot the shit for a bit and then everything that overflowed, came right out at me.
Basically, I sat down on the sofa, and Val and Amanda started letting me in on things. I put in my own input and became without warning, the neutral opinion from the outside. Well, no sooner does everything come out but Thomas decides he is going to show up, and things go downhill.
Lets just say that the decision was made that Val was so hurt, that he was going to disconnect the ties amongst the group and amongst all of his friends for a while so he could gather things. I told him that there would be no chance in Hell for him to do that to me and I wouldn't let him do it to me. Needless to say, Val left in tears, which is not good, because Val never cries.
After the fight, closer to supper, I found out that Val has some serious feelings for me, which I had thought that he had gotten over. Val and I used to go out and it seems like his feelings never went away for me. This morning, I found out that with all of the pressures that Val is going through, that I am a little more involved than we had originally thought/hoped for.
See, I too have had feelings for Thomas, but I didn't indulge in them. Thomas knows about this and we decided that it wasn't meant to be, so we grew a friendship instead.
So, to put things together :
I was watching a guy I fell for, but could never have, get a girl who couldn't belong to a guy I used to be with who couldn't have the girl he wanted at all.
Draw a triangle. On the top put Val, on the left hand side put Thomas and on the right put Amanda. Draw a circle around the whole triangle, and put my name in there, and this is how it is.
I wish things would get better, but with the track they're on, things are only about to get worse.
On a happier note,
I'll be going to my Nephews house today to eat birthday cake and come home to cleaning my room for my Bittersweet.
*sigh*
~Emily and Bitter...ness
I am currently unemployed and seeking work. Halloween is over so may the work begin. Luckly for me, Staples is hiring full time overnights, so I might actually have a chance with that.
I've been living off of nothing for the past month, and if it weren't for yesterdays events, I would already be out of food and would not have eaten in a few days.
Bittersweet is going in for her "fixing" on Wednesday and has to fast and has to remain in my room for two weeks which means that I have no choice but to clean my room. Poor sweetheart. Its going to be Hell for her.
Had to go to my investor and take out more money. I didn't want to, but I had no choice. Rent is due and Bittersweet needs that operation come Hell or highwater.
And, I had to see the light in my friends eyes die because he lost his girlfriend to my other friend and I was thrown into the middle of it for my "Neutral" position.
Yeah, all Hell broke loose yesterday and it wasn't pretty.
Basically...
"Val", "Thomas" and "Amanda" are in a bit of trouble. Here's how it all started. Val goes to school with Amanda and has feelings for her. As time goes on, they eventually get together and decide that they might go out for a bit to see how things may turn out. As it turns out, Val does something terribly wrong and appologizes for it, but Amanda doesn't feel the same. After a little fight, things get settled and everyone is friends.
Before Val and Amandas fight, an open invitation to Tuscons is brought out to the group and we go and watch a Blues-ish band perform. I go along with Val, Thomas, Amanda, "Suzy", "Veronika" and "David" and actually had a reasonable time. I didn't like the band too much, but thats not important.
Val introduces Amanda to Thomas and before everyone at the table knows it, Amanda and Thomas decide to go out for a bit (which ends up being over 2 hours) of a walk and talk a bit. By the time that the night is through, Amanda and Thomas have really hit it off. REMEMBER THOUGH : Val and Amanda are still somewhat pre-fight and haven't yet decided wether or not they're going to be going out.
So, Val and Amanda go out and fight a bit, and thats when everything starts happening. Thomas ends up getting Amandas number and starts showing interest in her. Amanda, does the same. Now, as time goes on, Amanda and Thomas end up really liking eachother and a huge decision has to be made.
Amanda starts to get Val to drive her everywhere and basically, in my eyes, uses him as her fucking taxi. I am a bit angry over this, but after yesterday, I went a little easier on her. In the past few days, a lot has happened, a lot that I do know and a lot that I don't. Basically, the shit hit the fan yesterday in the living room down stairs.
A few days ago, Val decided that Thomas was the better man in this situation and decided to let go of Amanda because he thought there was nothing he could do about it and because he would rather see Thomas happy than himself. I found out about this yesterday when Amanda and Val came over around 11am or so. We shot the shit for a bit and then everything that overflowed, came right out at me.
Basically, I sat down on the sofa, and Val and Amanda started letting me in on things. I put in my own input and became without warning, the neutral opinion from the outside. Well, no sooner does everything come out but Thomas decides he is going to show up, and things go downhill.
Lets just say that the decision was made that Val was so hurt, that he was going to disconnect the ties amongst the group and amongst all of his friends for a while so he could gather things. I told him that there would be no chance in Hell for him to do that to me and I wouldn't let him do it to me. Needless to say, Val left in tears, which is not good, because Val never cries.
After the fight, closer to supper, I found out that Val has some serious feelings for me, which I had thought that he had gotten over. Val and I used to go out and it seems like his feelings never went away for me. This morning, I found out that with all of the pressures that Val is going through, that I am a little more involved than we had originally thought/hoped for.
See, I too have had feelings for Thomas, but I didn't indulge in them. Thomas knows about this and we decided that it wasn't meant to be, so we grew a friendship instead.
So, to put things together :
I was watching a guy I fell for, but could never have, get a girl who couldn't belong to a guy I used to be with who couldn't have the girl he wanted at all.
Draw a triangle. On the top put Val, on the left hand side put Thomas and on the right put Amanda. Draw a circle around the whole triangle, and put my name in there, and this is how it is.
I wish things would get better, but with the track they're on, things are only about to get worse.
On a happier note,
I'll be going to my Nephews house today to eat birthday cake and come home to cleaning my room for my Bittersweet.
*sigh*
~Emily and Bitter...ness