my life is boring right now. gay gay gay
my life. well, there really hasn't been much living going on lately because i've been sick. went to the doc and what-not and they don't know whats wrong, so that's cool. don't really care what it is, just as long as it goes away NOW, which it is, so i am happy. i've missed lots of school, and work, and that sucks. i hate when im not around a lot of people for a long time, because im sick or something, cuz then i just forget about how much fun school is or going out is, and when it comes time to getting back in the loop i've gotten too use to being lazy and shit that i don't want to go. then i have to talk myself into it because i know its always what i want, i just forget how much i miss it. whatever
its so crazy to believe that in like 4 months im going to be graduating. i have my senior pix this month that i have to take. i'm so ready for the next chapter in my life. so, so, so READY. you know, being on vashon, i really can say that i don't care about what people think about me anymore. i've always had this problem, i dont know about problem- but "thing" rather, that i feel like i have to have everyone like me inorder for me to be OK with myself. and its not a matter of being fake to people, it's just im used to being well liked. and here everyone is so gossipy and judgemental, and i dont know, i just dont give a fuck if someone doesn't like me. i can honestly be OK with it. i really do like it here though. i love all my friends. they are all great. i love island life pretty much. i like the quietness and seclusion, but i'm ready to leave. i know i'll come back a lot. i havent decided whether or not im going to move in with my mom before or after summer. i have a job here, and all my friends will be here before we all go on our separate journeys, so i will probaby stay. but who knows.
as far as guys are concerned, ugh, i like no one, absolutely no one. and i haven't since sophomore year. i mean really, and truly, liked someone. that is so sad. and i miss really liking someone. i want to really bad. i have a little crush, but its definitely not like, we've hung out like 3 times. but hopefully ill get the hook up. haha. anyways this is how im livin. yep. until next time, chow.
its so crazy to believe that in like 4 months im going to be graduating. i have my senior pix this month that i have to take. i'm so ready for the next chapter in my life. so, so, so READY. you know, being on vashon, i really can say that i don't care about what people think about me anymore. i've always had this problem, i dont know about problem- but "thing" rather, that i feel like i have to have everyone like me inorder for me to be OK with myself. and its not a matter of being fake to people, it's just im used to being well liked. and here everyone is so gossipy and judgemental, and i dont know, i just dont give a fuck if someone doesn't like me. i can honestly be OK with it. i really do like it here though. i love all my friends. they are all great. i love island life pretty much. i like the quietness and seclusion, but i'm ready to leave. i know i'll come back a lot. i havent decided whether or not im going to move in with my mom before or after summer. i have a job here, and all my friends will be here before we all go on our separate journeys, so i will probaby stay. but who knows.
as far as guys are concerned, ugh, i like no one, absolutely no one. and i haven't since sophomore year. i mean really, and truly, liked someone. that is so sad. and i miss really liking someone. i want to really bad. i have a little crush, but its definitely not like, we've hung out like 3 times. but hopefully ill get the hook up. haha. anyways this is how im livin. yep. until next time, chow.