Meh - ness
Why is it that when people need me, I'm there for them, and frequently go out of my way to be so, when it's becoming more and more clear every time that when I want to see people or need to talk to someone, they don't have the time and they don't really give a fuck about what I have to say?
Not wishing to sound emo or whingey in any way but it always feels like whatever I say is worthless within my so called friends, and that when I do have a problem it's always dealt with by the same style of dismissive comment supposed to suggest that 'it will be ok but we just say say that as we don't really give a crap and as such can't be arsed to have a talk about it with you' .
Any free time I have that I want to spend seeing friends is always wasted because they're all busy with some sort of excuse, and thus I am just left a loner as usual. Don't ask me to go make new friends because I lack the neccssary social and confidence skills.
Just needed to have a moan again. I apologise. Tatty bye.